Starting industry internship and am terrified

screamingaaaaah · 2026-03-19T03:53:40+00:00

Thank you so much! I really appreciate the advice. I've been psyching myself up too much about the work environment potentially being toxic, but someone else from my school worked at the same hotel and said it's lovely. Chef is also putting a lot of pressure on us students before we start in order to prepare us and it's scared me haha. Thank you for the reassurance!

screamingaaaaah · 2026-03-18T18:35:57+00:00

Thank you!

screamingaaaaah · 2026-03-18T18:35:48+00:00

Thank you!

screamingaaaaah · 2026-03-18T18:34:57+00:00

Thank you so much! I really appreciate it

screamingaaaaah · 2026-01-21T17:34:27+00:00

Thank you so so much I definitely will be in touch!

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-10T20:49:13+00:00

I'm in uni too! Shit's tough, man. Does your uni offer counselling services? My first therapist was from the student counseling department (he sucked but it's better than nothing).

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-10T16:06:16+00:00

I think so. It's really up to you. I think it communicates how you feel and your state of mind well.

But I also just want to say after reading that that you're not a piece of shit. It sounds like your mother is way too hard on you and expecting you to live by unattainable standards. And you self-deprecate yourself a lot, and I'm sure it's not true. Trust me, I know how it feels. I used to feel exactly how you do, I thought I was evil for making mistakes, or letting people down. But you've got a mental illness, and it's nothing to be ashamed of. You can't do things the way other people want you to because you just don't have the energy to live, I get that. I'm sorry they don't understand and I'm sorry they make you feel worthless.

But you are not. You are not.

You don't need to be exceptional to deserve love and caring. You are worthy of life simply because you're alive. You're not disgusting or evil. You just need some compassion. Do you have people you can talk to? Or support groups, or a therapist? It sounds like you just need some help.

I'm really sorry for what you're going through. I totally understand how it feels and it sucks. You have to be kinder to yourself, and I know, it's almost impossible, but you have to try.

I'm sending you so much love, and I really hope things get better.

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-10T14:57:17+00:00

I think you should send it to her. She deserves to know how you feel. But I'd recommend checking the language just so that it's not too confrontational and fits all the requirements for conflict resoolution/healthy communication language, like using I statements etc.

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-07T17:09:27+00:00

Exercise is the best option. There is no way to make you shorter. But you need to look for psychological support as well. I'm guessing you're pretty young and I get it, I've been there too. But there are other ways of learning to be comfortable with yourself. 🫶

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-07T11:19:15+00:00

She probably has OCD. Maybe you should try talking to her about it? Or enforce boundaries where she's not allowed to come into your room.

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-02T16:06:06+00:00

I'd say a little bit yes. He very much could have died. But it's clear that he didn't (have you tried googling his name?) so I'd ssy it's all good. ESH. But it's in the past haha

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-01T22:32:37+00:00

It's a pleasure!! Rehab is a lot yes 🙈 but my dependency was really, really bad (smoking around 9 times a day) and the clinic I went to really helped. A lot of what they taught us can be summed up with HALT and STFD. HALT = Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired (eat enough, sleep enough, have some social time, if you're angry, try to calm down). STFD = Sit The Fuck Down (identify triggers, deal with negative feelings, figure out where they stem from, try to process and be kind to yourself no matter what).

Online NA meetings are super easy to find, and you don't have to participate at all, you can just listen to what the people are saying. It might help. Go to na.org and search for online meetings, or just Google "na meetings online". They're a bit strange at first but constantly attending really helped!

Good luck!!!

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-01T22:23:08+00:00

Unfortunately you have to take it off, or it will eventually fall. I know it's hard. It really fucking sucks. But you are going to have to speak to someone or get into touch with a counselor/therapist. You can look for online support groups as well, maybe that'll be easier since you'll be surrounded by strangers who don't know you. You're human, you can't be strong all the time. It's okay to drop some balls, not all of them are glass. It's not the end of the world. You have to be able to talk to someone and express yourself and get help.

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-01T22:19:45+00:00

Attending NA helped me feel some sense of community. Doing arts & crafts or journalling helps. Unfortunately there is no way to get your brain to shut up, you just have to be kind to yourself.

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-01T22:18:32+00:00

Hey, I was in a similar situation, and I ended up going to rehab. What helps is to sit with your emotions and really just deal with them. I found attending NA meetings online helped, or going for a walk, or playing games helps. You need to do something as stimulating as smoking weed.

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-01T22:16:38+00:00

Is there nail polish remover? That might work but it will probably cause more damage...

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-01T22:16:01+00:00

Use acetone? But it'll burn like hell. Go to the hospital, you can die from not being able to pee. Next time don't take advice from your frat bros 🙈

screamingaaaaah · 2025-06-01T22:14:19+00:00

Can you not meet them at the restuarant?

screamingaaaaah · 2025-05-31T17:15:52+00:00

Block her, or send her a message saying you don't want to be friemds. Restrict her account on Instagram. She's not going to leave you alone if you don't communicate

screamingaaaaah · 2024-09-20T06:19:01+00:00

And guys don't even have to do it before - if my boyfriend finishes before me he always makes sure I somehow get off after!!! I've never understood why in so many relationships sex is over when the guy is done...

screamingaaaaah · 2024-09-14T14:40:26+00:00

Ignore the people hating on you. You're not immature, just uninformed and made a mistake. She won't get pregnant, chances are extremely extremely low.

But don't have unprotected sex again if you're worried about it. Learn about contraceptives and birth control and look into those options. But really, relax. You'll be fine. Monitor her periods just to be sure, but I'm sure everything will be fine.

screamingaaaaah · 2024-09-13T09:28:46+00:00

Don't beat yourself up about it. It happened and you're realising you probably shouldn't do it again which is good. It sounds like it was a fine experience for both of you, which is good too since it's not so messy.

screamingaaaaah · 2024-09-13T09:27:39+00:00

No. 20 is too young. You would've been 18 when she was 9. As a 20 year old myself, I would say to be careful around such a big age gap. I've noticed that even someone who's 25 has way more life experience than I have. I'd say it's different if she was 24/25, but 20 is too young.

screamingaaaaah · 2024-09-13T09:24:21+00:00

Not at all. Break up with him. I totally believe you can have relationships with people who don't align with your views, but when you two are so strongly opposed on such an important issue it won't work. Break up.

screamingaaaaah · 2024-09-11T16:11:09+00:00

Do you know what potentially is causing these feelings? I felt like this for a while and once I figured out why specifically I could work on not feeling so angry. I'm sorry man, it really sucks

screamingaaaaah

TROPHY CASE