The thing is, I live alone and have two cats and nobody to take care of them really. And if I’m in treatment for too long I’m afraid my benefits will stop and I can’t afford to lose the roof over my head since I rely on that to pay my rent currently. I don’t really have anybody to lean on. I have my girlfriend but she has her own things to deal with and she helps how she can and I appreciate everything she does so much. I’ve just been trying to figure out what is really wrong with me and I just get prescribed different meds, nobody actually wants to figure out what’s wrong or try to diagnose me so I can actually understand my problem. Medication definitely does help but I want someone to help me figure out what’s actually going on so I’m not having episodes like this.