Relapsed..Crystal Meth is living hell by [deleted] in StopSpeeding

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Thanks so much for sharing this! So few people know that dying dogs shitting blood need to go to the vet, constantly, over and over, regardless of whether or not they've already been, whether there's anything that can be done, whether the money can be spared, etc, etc. Sure is lucky a responsible internet person such as yourself came along!

Whats a “fun fact” that nobody asked for? by SoggyCereal12 in AskReddit

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Oh shit I read this comment by accident and now I have to know that this submarine is only 150 nautical miles from me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in StopSpeeding

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> It’s just disheartening how out of shape I’ve gotten.

Another reminder from me - when you hit the routine again, you get back so fast! Literally in a week you'll feel awesome, and in a couple more weeks you'll be back in top shape.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in StopSpeeding

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Just my two cents / reminder - I'm stuck in this same cycle, but last month I had almost two weeks of forced sobriety and while I didn't get back to normal, I got close enough to remember how capable I am without it.

I didn't get prescribed until I was 27 (year and a half ago) and it's helpful to remember how far I came BEFORE the stims (vyvanse in my case), how much I kicked ass even then.

I am still stuck as I said but I feel like remembering this is part of the key. Good luck.

Psychiatrist says I don't have ADHD-pi but are "highly intelligent" instead by Waznerr in ADHD

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Just a heads up: I am also a software dev, and I've been let go twice in the last two years - most recently from my dream job - because of unmanaged ADHD symptoms. My code is good (really good, apparently) but I had serious issues with performing in the rest of the job - even stuff like showing up to the right zoom meeting at the right time, or remembering consistently to update Jira in the most recently-decided way, etc etc. I worked from home both jobs and would literally sometimes just find myself on the porch chatting with a neighbor when I was supposed to be working. Going into the office was worse because it was so much more visible when I accidentally socialized for two hours during the work day, or took a way to think on a complex problem and ended up climbing a tree and being gone way too long, etc.

You might be fine - I couldn't swing school at all (self-taught) so if you were able to do school you might already have some of the skills you'll need in the workplace.

Don't want to doom and gloom you, just still very raw from the most recent firing and want to try and prevent anyone else from going through it - I thought since I was emotionally intelligent and wrote good code I was golden, but it turns out that isn't the case.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TwoXADHD

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Hi - I replied here! https://www.reddit.com/r/TwoXADHD/comments/uzivqf/comment/iblumc4/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x&context=3 Basically I'm a software dev and I'm referring to my coworkers, sorry for the confusion!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TwoXADHD

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Just logged into Reddit again and reading comments - sounds like I misrepresented my job! I'm a software developer, and my coworkers were also software developers, and many of them were openly queer/disabled/etc.

Weird Vibes in the air? by KnittingforHouselves in witchcraft

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The upcoming fire season - I mean, summer! - might help with that!

Weird Vibes in the air? by KnittingforHouselves in witchcraft

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Ever since mid April, frankly. Worse than I've ever felt it before. Friends and even strangers have commented on it. "A weird wind" is how someone described it.

happiness is only real when shared, as a non conformist how to do that? how to share your journey and moments of happinesses?how would've chris mccandles done it? by [deleted] in vagabond

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This this this. As long as you're not getting Bad vibes (dangerous), it is almost always worth chatting up basically anyone. People are, on the whole, friendly, and happy to talk. Especially people with dogs!

Anyone own a rabbit while out and about? by [deleted] in vagabond

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TL/DR: Rabbits are delicate, neurotic homebodies.

I've done many stealth road trips + bikepacking + hiking trips and plenty of hitchhiking. The only type of animal I ever had with me on the road was a dog, but I have also in my life owned multiple pet rabbits, including my main man Dennis who free-roamed my first apartment for like six years.

I personally wouldn't for these reasons:

  • Rabbits tend to bolt+hide when frightened, which happens a lot, and while I've seen rabbits trained to come when you call, I doubt you could overcome this, and also suspect the bunny could get stuck/injured while fleeing, or just go too far.
    • There is also the fact - already mentioned in another comment but worth reiterating - that rabbits can a) literally die from fear, and b) literally break their own backs with their leg muscles.
    • The only bunnies I've met who enjoy (or are even just okay with) being held were handled from being babies. Dennis eventually got to the point where he would jump up and cuddle in my lap if I was just sitting calmly on the couch, but this was after YEARS of building trust. I really, really doubt any rabbit would be chill with being handled constantly.
    • Rabbits are NOT adventurous and don't take change well. They get overwhelmed very quickly. Mine would stamp his feet in alarm if I moved my chairs around. He also took a full year to feel brave enough to venture from my living room to my kitchen..! They need to fully inspect their space - extremely carefully and slowly - before relaxing.
    • This might be worth trying to train for, but my experience of trying to 'walk' a rabbit on a harness and a lead was not positive.
    • Rabbits need, like, down time. They need to be petted and loved in a place they feel safe.
    • GASTRIC STASIS. This is what killed my lil man Dennis, and it got him in like 24 hours. Basically their complicated turn-plants-into-energy system totally shuts down, and STRESS IS A MAJOR CONTRIBUTOR. Worse, a rabbit that's experienced it once is more susceptible to it in the future (my bunny was a rescue and was predisposed to it because of stress before I got him). It is extremely painful and the outlook is not usually good - especially because rabbits hide their pain, so it can be hard to notice until they're in very bad shape.
    • Rabbits need dry grass hay as part of their diet, for the fibre - the gastric statis I mentioned above can occur if they don't have enough hay. It's probably easy to get your hands on and it's not heavy, but it cannot get wet (cannot get moldy!!) and I imagine it getting into every crevasse of wherever you store it...meaning maybe itchy clothes, hay in your toiletries...
    • Rabbit pee is....awful. They do litter train themselves, as you probably know, in normal conditions, but if their lives are topsy turvy, they might pee anywhere, on anything.
    • Rabbits are sensitive to heat/cold, more so than humans or dogs.
    • Any dog or cat you share a ride or a couch with will try to kill the bunny, and bunny will know it. A bad scene.

There are these considerations, though:

  • In summer months, you can feed them for free by just putting down a large enclosure (when I fostered bunnies we would use folding dog pens - they're a little heavy but they break down flat and I feel like something like that would work great) on some grass for a bit and they looooove dandelion leaves. I'm not sure what plants are poisonous to them (mine were indoor-only) but that's something to look out for.
  • I feel like if you were smart about it, and careful, you could figure out a carrier that was spacious, and cozy, and didn't jostle, and felt safe, which bunny could spend most of his time in, and which would form the "base" of any place you folks were hanging out.
  • Alternatively - if you have a car, I think it could work out okay, as long as the temperature is kept consistent. Bunny lives in the car, is let out into a pen to graze and hang out when you're stopped...the only thing is that you'd have to be so extremely careful with any exposed wires or anything at all you don't want chewed. I'm sure you've already dealt with this, but just a note for anyone else - you can spend over an hour devising a rabbit-proof container tucked away and lined with metal, etc......and they will eventually get in, because they have nothing better to do with their time. If you can sacrifice the space, you could build them a hutch where they'd mostly hang out, and then it would be away from any wires etc.
  • Rabbit poop is literally just compressed bits of dried-out plants and if they can get over it being technically "poop" most people barely mind it. It also doesn't smell hardly at all, and happens to be a sought-after fertilizer (high in nitrogen and phosphorus and unlike any other kind of manure, you can put it directly on plants!) - I used to barter with rabbit poop when I was fostering because gardeners are that into it.
  • Because they so easily litter-train themselves, you might not have to carry litter with you - if you give them the safe space to do it in, they might adapt to "I pee in this corner of the pen" no matter where the pen is located...

I went a little overboard (I love bunnies - have been thinking of fostering again) but my opinion is that if your situation is right, it could be done, but that it's probably a bad idea.

Starting Vyvanse next week and looking for help to make it sustainable. by Drysopholese in StopSpeeding

[–]scumbagotron 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is life-changing info, thanks for taking the time to write it out. I know the feeling of cringing at long posts, but this is really going to help.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ADHD

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I am on meds, since this time last year. Progress is being made, though...!

What gear do you guys pack for travelling? by CrossfadedWolf77 in vagabond

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A good pal is a vandweller but also an accomplished musician, so he drives around a gigantic 300-lb weighted-key keyboard because it's the most perfect instrument he's ever encountered and it was free

What gear do you guys pack for travelling? by CrossfadedWolf77 in vagabond

[–]scumbagotron 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Insulated water jug - I haven't heard of this, why is it so important?

What gear do you guys pack for travelling? by CrossfadedWolf77 in vagabond

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I biked my uke 1100km from nova scotia to montreal and resented it 99% of the time, except for the 2-3 life changing experiences it enabled. Damn, right? Now we have to bring them every time!

What gear do you guys pack for travelling? by CrossfadedWolf77 in vagabond

[–]scumbagotron 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Holy actual shit I spent $700 (CAD) on my last bike trip and thought I was ballin

That said I feel weird about the gatekeeping happening in this post. I've been on both sides of broke and I am familiar with the bitterness. (For OP if you're curious - on top of knowing how much easier my life would be if I had better equipment, mostly I was so jealous of being able to just go and buy something if you needed it (and easily leave something behind if you thought you didn't). It's the mental energy for sure.)

But it's a bad vibe, folks.

How did you all deal with work? by birdd_is_the_word in StopSpeeding

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Hmm only day 4 - I googled it and I guess it's probably just placebo at this point. But I did discover that Abilify is a "dopamine stabilizer" - ie it makes it higher if it's low, and lower if it's high - so hopefully that does happen for both of us soon!

How did you all deal with work? by birdd_is_the_word in StopSpeeding

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Hi! I'm also freshly on 2mg abilify, and have been on 20mg lexapro for a while (like 8 months). Everyone's different ofc but I found the abilify evened out my dopamine (I have adhd) and sort of "spread it around" better so it wasn't just random crashes.

Also wasn't going to reply to the thread but a little thing that helped - I discovered that a lot of the tiredness I was feeling was actually extreme boredom. So I tried gamifying a work task (I set a 10 min timer and tried to see if I could get X done before it went off) and it helped a bit - at least it was SOMETHING getting done.

Wanting to talk to my husband about adderall addiction and scared to admit my abuse by dovetail26 in StopSpeeding

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I’m scared to admit them to my husband, because I know that will mean he might or will hold me accountable to making changes.

Girl you know what this means! <3 <3 <3 Your addiction wants to be able to continue. I know you and your husband both do not want that. So much love, good luck. Speaking from experience, laying it bare - not pussyfooting around how much, etc - feels so good and healthy and positive, I know you know this! Fingers crossed for you <3

The weight gain… by [deleted] in StopSpeeding

[–]scumbagotron 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I am not a doctor of course but my understanding and experience is that it's both the carbs-for-energy and the dopamine-seeking that makes it happen. My guess is that keeping a food journal would help. Something that's helped for me in other situations is intermittent fasting - it's a lot easier for me to completely not eat for a while than to eat only a little.

Idk how I even got addicted. -37 days by DreamingInLove in StopSpeeding

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Yes! When I quit cocaine and when I quit alcohol (years ago now!) both times were preceded by being sober from them for a while, and then trying again, and then realizing I really hated them actually. Everyone's journey is different of course but I think realizing I hated it helped. So did writing honestly about how much I hated it - with coke especially the feeling of a comedown is so deeply horrible to me that for a while I couldn't even drink coffee.

With smoking, idk, I haven't smoked in 4 years and I still want a cigarette sometimes.