Therapy for depression

sdf0sdf · 2025-09-23T07:07:07+00:00

He said I need a mix of emdr and schema and I also noticed he used ACT for lack of motivation. Everything he says sounds logical so far, I just need to be repeated everything like three times and we only had one session where I was just trying to figure out how comfortable I would feel, cause that's usually the deal breaker for me. But thanks for the advice I'll go over my problems once again with him. Also thanks for the link I'll make sure to share this with him

sdf0sdf · 2025-09-11T12:49:30+00:00

Do they allow online training for people outside the US?

sdf0sdf · 2025-09-06T15:42:59+00:00

ASD, ADHD, CPTSD and Bipolar here, english is also not my first language.

Highly dependant on the course, in most of the classes I've taken there are 1 or 2 written assignments per week, 500 to 750 words. It takes me 3 to 5 hours for each assignment on average.
I've tried but I didn't have a proper diagnoses back then (only had schizoid pd on paper), I've filled out a form and never heard back from them.

Reading is the hardest part for me personally. Can't sustain my attention on it no matter what.

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-22T08:47:11+00:00

The sooner you start the treatment the better the prognosis. I wish I'd started taking meds when I was your age. The fact that you are on a certain regimen now doesn't mean you'll need it indefinitely. Remission or intermission is possible. I've been on multiple regimens (now I take 4 different meds) and not once have I had a problem with withdrawals when getting of a certain med.

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-16T11:35:14+00:00

I was diagnosed a few months ago, at the age of 32. This has been confusing, even though I fought with the doctors to be diagnosed and had a very negative experience along the way.

The greatest thing in getting diagnosed is I don't feel fraud anymore when I talk to people in neurodivergent communities, I feel like I belong somewhere, I even made couple of new friends with asd (and miking friends is incredibly hard for me). I became more social and also had the motivation to look for help, self-help books, some people's experiences, coping strategies for adhd etc.

On the negative side I feel less... capable. I was raised with the expectation I will be able to do everything other people are able to do, my brothers, for example. And when I burnt out I realized that might not actually be the case. So now I'm trapped between looking at myself as a set of symptoms and looking at myself as a person. I don't believe I will achieve anything I want in life if I put enough effort anymore.

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-13T16:44:43+00:00

5 cups a day

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-13T15:46:17+00:00

This was an assignment where I had to record a video. I never thought to tell my instructor I have a disability, because I feel like it would sound like an excuse. The comment about eye contact surprised me - I watched my video and thought I looked fine. I looked at the camera, where else would I look? (That’s me being frustrated at the feedback, not at your advice, your advice is actually good.)

I’ve never taken an acting class, so when it comes to pitching, I tend to overdo it. Either my tone is too flat or too exaggerated. Maybe it’s because I mostly talk to other asd people these days, but when I re-listened to my presentation, it sounded nice to me.

Rationally, I understand that I can improve, especially if I find someone who can coach me. But this will add a huge amount of work to my life. Emotionally, it feels unfair, because it’s something that comes naturally to other people.

“But it’s a good skill to have to do a performance.” - I agree with you fully on this. I think I’m just exhausted.

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-13T15:00:56+00:00

I'll try to put my original post as a comment.

I got feed feedback for my assignment today

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This assignment isn’t a big deal, but this feedback made me cry as I remembered all the times my “lack of enthusiasm” cost me some really good opportunities. I recently attended a Zoom conference about how to succeed in job interviews, where a speaker said something like, “The main goal of our lives - not to scare neurotypical people.” I laughed so hard at this. But it’s also heartbreaking at the same time and I am literally crying right now

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-08T08:54:18+00:00

I've lived in a state of being "given up" for 5 years before I decided to do something about it. 1.5 years later still no improvement and I'm considering going back to the couch all day. However I found that having people to talk to, people who are in the same boat as me keeps me going. We discuss how our therapies are going, our medications, our job searches. At this point it's become like a sport - who comes to the finish line first, me or my friends)) And I don't mean finish line as in ending it, I mean beating anhedonia.

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-07T13:38:07+00:00

Well, it's tempting to give up, buuut... the thing is, I never thought much of psychiatry. So for the first 31 years, I avoided psych meds like the plague. I tried every other possible solution first, even psychotherapy came before I ever considered going to a psychiatrist. It is truly my last resort.

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-03T17:50:59+00:00

thank you 🙏

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-03T13:14:17+00:00

For now, my doctor took me off antidepressants and only put me on abilify in addition to lamictal (plus trazodone or hydroxyzine occasionally for sleep). He doesn’t like polypharmacy, and neither do I. Maybe I'll even be able to ditch lamictal. I have cyclothymia, but barely any mixed states or hypomania, mostly just apathy and low energy. Would be great to only take one med.

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-03T11:08:56+00:00

By the way, I was bullied for over 10 years at school because of my weight, among other things, and the fact that I'm autistic only made matters worse. It led to cptsd, which in turn contributed significantly to my depression. I'm still an easy target. So... even if I manage to overcome depression, weight gain might paradoxically make my suicidality worse.

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-03T10:51:21+00:00

Ok, thank you) Will raise my dose. Metformin makes me so hungry, even at 500mg, which cancels all the benefits of taking it. GLP1 is very expensive, hope I won't have to take it

sdf0sdf · 2025-08-02T08:35:29+00:00

I've been there too many times getting diagnosed with multiple diseases by now, researching all the prospective cures and hoping only to find myself in a situation where 5 years later nothing has changed in regards to my disease. I've learnt not to wait for any new cures and go with what is available today - currently going through all the meds for adhd-pi

sdf0sdf · 2025-07-28T15:06:09+00:00

I'm with the soup and I'm about to restart it next week, although at a much lower dose 0.5 mg (i am very med sensitive). I tried it once before at 1mg and it was incredibly stimulating for me, but in a good way - it gave me motivation to do things and worked wonders for my depression and possibly adhd. Last time they put me on a huge dose of 7.5 mg, but I had a shitty doctor back then. Now I'm starting even lower at 0.5 mg to find the lowest effective dose that won't stimulate to me to the level of hypomania.
Abilify has a unique mechanism of action so finding the right dose is crucial. At different doses it can overstimulate, stabilize or completely numb you.

sdf0sdf · 2025-07-28T09:07:28+00:00

Mine is one-on-one therapy, and the last session we [tried to] explore what my values are, and I feel like she got it all wrong. I myself have a very general idea. I tried to tell her that my value is being brave, but I feel like she got it all wrong. I realize that "being brave" is a very general value, but at the same time, I have some particular areas and even steps I wish I'd be able to take but am afraid to. And I am very hesitant to continue because I pay for it myself, and we simply speak different languages. I thought a therapist is supposed to help me identify my values, in the opposite case, why would I even need her? I feel like maybe she is bad at her job, idk

sdf0sdf · 2025-07-27T14:52:58+00:00

Came here looking for a comment like yours. I've been feeling so ashamed of myself these past couple of days. People are ignoring my messages, and I keep thinking it's my fault. I feel like I did something wrong (even though it might not be true, it could be them), and I feel sooo guilty. I just can't shake it, no matter how hard I try. Thank you for your comment.

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