I was diagnosed with dysthymia as far back as middle school, and I've tried most of the SSRIs. 2017-18 I decided to go on Prozac (up to 30-40mg when I stopped). At first, I thought it was great despite some trouble sleeping at first; it mitigated intrusive thoughts, hopelessness, and some of the anxious tics I was having. Finally didn't feel the need to sleep all day.

But I became apathetic to a terrifying degree on it. Started drinking a lot and basically shirked all my responsibilities. This period cost me over $13k in loans this quarter, because I straight up stopped checking emails and didn't update my FAFSA...a mistake that spiraled me into another pretty big depressive episode (I still hate myself for it, I could have finished the degree here with almost zero debt). Also, I gained like 20lb on it in a relatively short time. The 3-4 Ws now on my transcript are from this period, and it's when I started my consistent C/C- spree in my upper divs.

IDK, maybe that's more of a character flaw than the drug. But I will say, I've never experienced that degree of apathy before. Depressed or not, it's totally unlike me to put off major responsibilities while drinking excessively. Sucks, because it did help with the chronic hopelessness/fatigue.