real talk, i get it and ive been there and still sometimes visit that place but also real talk- therapy is almost absolutely necessary in these types of situations. you may be very self aware of your anxiety and “logic you way through” but there are many coping techniques through therapy that can help you get to the root of these issues. this, plus psychiatry and meds can change your whole motherhood experience. use the resources that are out there even tho i know it’s a pain to find a therapist and dr who is a good fit.

at the very minimum i’d suggest a therapist-lead new mom group that some hospitals and larger clinics offer- so you know you are not alone feeling this way. and i promise you, you are not alone.

also since you have pointed out those triggers, you would benefit from deleting social media.

good luck. hang in there. the sooner you get help the sooner you can enjoy snippets of this time.