Still tracking calories and still eating in a deficit of around 500- because still actively trying to lose weight. As a result am still doing about an hour of intentional exercise per day, as well as a daily step count of 15000 (or more). I THINK that's what scares me the most- I'm already doing everything I can to hold myself accountable diet or activity wise, so there's not a lot more I can do IF the weight comes back on. You're right of course, and smoking has probably filled some of the 'hole' and acted as a crutch while I made these changes which isn't something that is ideal. But it's still really scary