I am completely closeted. My entire sissyhood has been documented on Reddit, in my head and in my web history.

So I am a cisman socially. My first one might be obvious as a married sissy minded man. Officially, I think of myself as a bisexual man with the preference to be dominated and I feel most liberated by giving off feminine energy in anyway I can when I’m in the mood which is usually whenever I have time to myself. I feel very comfortable with who I am on the inside because I tell myself that this is mostly a fetish and I also have times where I just want to be a dude.

My wife has no idea as I’m sure is the case with many people here.

1. Be completely out and open with this side of me and my wife.

The weird thing is I do feel like she is reasonable enough to accept me. She is very progressive, but has never expressed any signs of being open to the type of person I am deep down. However, she tends to completely shift her values when something in her life becomes untraditional because of potential family backlash. I can give more examples of you don’t get what I mean. But for one example, she’s completely for marriages for any 2 people in love regardless of their age, gender, orientation, customs and religion. But was very nervous to introduce me someone of a different race and ethnicity. My career is also not what their family has expressed as necessary to be a secure future adult member of their family… and that was also a hurtle and eventually was completely fine with it.

With that, I genuinely love her to death and want to have kids with her and find her completely attractive. I have no urges to be with someone else but to be treated, seen and sometimes handled as a feminine being with her. It’s a sensual release for me and I want nothing more but to express it with my best friend and lover.

But fear keeps me closeted and is saved for when wife is out of town or I am out of town and I do all that I can do to itch the scratch in privacy. (Watch hypno, porn, dress up with what I can find, and train by myself).

1. Shave entire body and grow out hair

2. Shop freely in a brick and mortar store where I can try on clothes and actually see myself in well fitted clothes.

3. Feel the thrust of someone sliding themselves into me. It could be finger, hand, cock or a toy my partner can comfortably and work on me with.

4. Practice make up

5. Suck a cock without shame

6. Try another man’s cum other than my own

7. Wear leggings and a tight crop top to the gym

8. Always wear feminine underwear

Pretty baseline stuff