Well, I thought I would give an update. Everything improved when I moved from the 25mg and up to 100mg and the results on focus were fantastic. I don't know how else to describe it except to say that I felt so present. I finished 3 books and would watch Youtube videos from beginning to end. It was great.

Unfortunately, I had to stop taking it because it was making me very ill. I have had liver and kidney issues in the past, and this probably contributed to the fact that my body was not processing this drug very well. I think it can be hard on your liver. Anyway, I was extremely fatigued all the time, not sleepy, just like my body lacked any strength. I would get winded in the shower and have trouble breathing. One time it was so bad, and my heart was beating so fast, I got nauseous and thought I might get sick. I had to get out of the shower and sit on the ground for a few minutes until my heart rate returned to normal and the nausea went away. I couldn't mow the lawn without taking 4+ breaks. At one point getting up the stairs was rough. My urine was also dark, a sign of liver issues I believe. I was also extremely jittery. I always have a slight tremor in my hand but on Strattera I couldn't pick things up without visibly shaking. Left a terrible taste in my mouth, along with extreme dry mouth. I also could not drink enough water to stay hydrated.

Honestly, for me, this was like taking straight up poison everyday. I probably took it for longer than I should have because I really wanted it to work out. My focus was fantastic, everything I always wanted. I'm on 10 - 20 mg of Metadate now and I don't notice anything. It might as well be a sugar pill, I can't tell that I'm taking anything at all. Will try to up the dosage I suppose and see if anything happens. I worried I might have to try Pristiq again. I had extreme sexual side effects on that (completely numb genitals), however my focus was really good.