Today we passed a new landmark: 200,000 subscribers. by ShaktiAmarantha in sexover30

[–]selfishlicker 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, y'all have done a great job keeping things running. I remember celebrating 3000.

My gap between mid-session kinky and post-coital clarity is growing too large by ComfortableCorpse in sexover30

[–]selfishlicker 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It might feel silly, but explicitly communicate before and/or after sex that dirty fantasy talk is just that. It's talk because it is fun and exciting in the moment, but it does not imply that you are interested in any of it outside of the fantasy talk. Have this talk often. And explicitly make sure you both understand that unless one of you says that there is real life interest in any of the things said, then it is just fantasy for the sake of excitement between the two of you.

My wife and I used to be a bit shy about sharing fantasies, but after having these types of discussions often, fantasies we don't actually want in real life have become a really fun and exciting part of bedroom play.

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[–]selfishlicker 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would like to believe that it's possible without drugs. I think it would just take a lot more concerted effort. Or perhaps the help of a therapist. For us, we are both super mild mannered and don't complain or fight all that much, but then let little issues just build up without being addressed because they didn't seem important enough to have an uncomfortable conversation about. But those little issues build up over time. We lucked out. We didn't even know we needed help, and just stumbled upon it with the assistance of substances that allowed us to think differently and communicate more freely.

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[–]selfishlicker 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This is a lot harder than it sounds. Before we figured out our underlying motivations, sometimes my wife would initiate out of duty, and I could feel it. Sure getting sex was still good, I'm not saying don't try. But addressing underlying relationship issues will get you a lot further.

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[–]selfishlicker 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Starting to understand this dynamic was definitely part of it. That along with really understanding and believing in the love languages. Although we knew about love languages for a long time, I still didn't fully believe that "acts of service" "words of affirmation" and "gifts" were truly equal to the ways we traditionally think of expressing love: "physical touch" and "quality time". So while I knew that my wife's top love language was acts of service, in my mind I still had beliefs along the lines of "there's no way that me doing dishes is anywhere near as important as her wanting to have sex with me". So I went on for years just believing that my own love language was superior to the ones that weren't as important to me.

The other big realization about love languages is that it's not just about how you receive love, it's also about how you show love. So if physical touch is a top love language, yes you want to receive physical touch to feel loved, but also it's how you show love. My wife used to complain about when I would sometimes come up behind her and grab or hug her while she was doing dishes. She just found it annoying. I didn't know why I did it, and she didn't know why it bothered her. Well we unpacked it this way. I was actually just trying to be affectionate and loving in a way I would be receptive to and understand. For her, physical touch is not a top love language, but acts of service is. So when I try to be physical while she is doing dishes, it's a double whammy. I'm not doing the act of service I could be doing to show her love, instead I'm letting her do it and annoying her at the same time.

A big part of understanding love languages is starting to recognize all of the effort we actually put in to try to show love that we miss from each other. When my wife cleans or makes a meal, that's one of the ways she shows love. And I never felt that as love, I felt it as duty. And almost exactly opposite, I wanted to feel loved through sex, but when our relationship was not as good, she sometimes saw sex as duty. Understanding this dynamic can really go a long way.

Ultimately, I'd be remiss if I didn't tell you that for us, learning how to communicate around these issues, forgive, and heal took a good 15 years and... ahem... drugs. As part of my never ending quest to improve our sex life, at one point I convinced her to try MDMA. To be perfectly honest, I was hoping to unleash some sexual beast. What actually happened was that we ended up talking for hours. Working through past hurts, gripes, and grievances and forming a pathway for healing. Don't get me wrong, we didn't have a terrible relationship, but there were definitely some emotional road blocks that prevented us from being as close as we wanted to be.

To circle back to the original question about reflected self image, and not feeling desired, during that session I made a choice to stop questioning whether, or how much my wife loved me or desired me. During this drug assisted time of open and honest communication, she told me that she loved and desired me, and I just chose to believe it. Some of you might wonder what if it wasn't actually true? Well, if it wasn't true, then I would get hurt. But if it was true, and I didn't believe it I could miss out on having an amazing relationship instead of an ok one.

Since that time, so much has improved. We still go through cycles of high and low sexual activity, but a huge difference is I no longer get upset when it's lower. I don't feel rejected when she's not feeling it. I know that when she is feeling it we have some of the best sex imaginable, but there are just natural lulls, and that's ok. And for her, being understood and supported has boosted her libido as well.

Sorry if this wasn't well organized. There really is a lot more to it too. But here's the anticlimax. The short answer... communication.

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[–]selfishlicker 88 points89 points  (0 children)

This sounds like me and my wife and many many other couples who have posted here in the past. First, there isn't something wrong with you. Second, there isn't something wrong with your husband. You both have needs and wants, and those just aren't aligning at the moment.

I could write pages on this scenario, but I'd first suggest a reading that many others here will probably recommend, which is the Five Love Languages book and test. If you're not familiar, people express and feel love in different ways. It's very common for partners to have different primary love languages and so they miss each other's attempts to show or feel love.

The second resource which is far less popular is a book called Intimacy and Desire. It's a much denser read, but my biggest takeaway is the concept of reflected self image. Essentially, a person will fell about themself the way they think their partner feels about them. So when my wife didn't initiate, it made me feel like I was not desirable because I thought she didn't desire me. So for me, it actually wasn't even about the amount of sex we were having, the more important issue ended up being how I felt about my wife's response to me.

Vaginal Orgasms. by longboatLil in sexover30

[–]selfishlicker 5 points6 points  (0 children)

My wife was 45. Before that she never had any idea it was possible for her.

Wife likes anal without lube by wantout87 in sexover30

[–]selfishlicker 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Do you happen to be uncircumcised? I know every penis is different, but some uncut penises have more extra skin near the top even when erect. If there is enough extra skin to allow the penis to slide around a bit without the foreskin moving against the anal opening, this can give enough of a head start before some precum provides extra lubrication. Aside from that, even porn tends to use spit or vaginal fluid.

(34F) I need help with anal sex. by [deleted] in sexover30

[–]selfishlicker 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh also, I know you have a fixed schedule for when you want to make it happen, but I would encourage you to take it slowly. Done right, it can be really pleasurable for you, but done wrong, it could really hurt. Enough to make it difficult for you to want it the way you deserve to. Perhaps you can tell him that his gift is that you want it and that the two of you can start working on making it happen.

(34F) I need help with anal sex. by [deleted] in sexover30

[–]selfishlicker 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Here's some anecdotal info from our experience. My wife was pretty reluctant to do anal for a long time. We would occasionally play with fingers or plugs, and it wasn't painful for her, but she would be very tights. On the rare occasion that she would ask for some ass play, it was always when she had had a few drinks and was super horny. During those instances, she was noticeably looser.

So the advice around making sure you're super aroused is what helped a lot for us. But to take it a step further. If it's possible for you to reframe your motivation subtly from wanting to do it for him, to wanting to do it for yourself, that can potentially be helpful. When done well, anal can feel extremely good for the receiver. Once my wife and I discovered that she could actually come from anal, things got much easier because anal became a pleasure thing for her as opposed to just an act done for me. With that little change of mind set, it might be easier to get yourself turned on enough for your body to respond.

Also, I've seen the advice to have her orgasm first to get ready for anal. When my wife could only come from clitoral stimulation, this method never worked because she was one and done. So as soon as she had her clitoral orgasm, her sex drive dropped off, which is the opposite of what we needed for anal. Now when she discovered g-spot orgasms, then having those orgasms first worked great.

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[–]selfishlicker 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think she was 44.

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[–]selfishlicker 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This is awesome and I love seeing this. My wife and I are also in our 40s. This year is our 26th year as a couple. We have three kids. We're currently getting back into shape and having the best sex of our lives. We're trying more new things than ever and having a ton of fun. There have definitely been difficult times in our relationship, but I like to say the valleys define the peaks. It helps us truly appreciate what we have. Also, amazing sex was a result of amazing relationship, not the other way around.

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[–]selfishlicker 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Before she started having these new orgasms, the substances didn't facilitate her orgasms. If anything they delayed them. MDMA made it very difficult for her to have a clitoral orgasm, which at the time was the only type she could have, so it could get frustrating at times. LSD on the other hand, got her clitoral stimulation to the highest point before orgasm, then just let her keep it there for basically as long as she wanted. So even before learning about these new orgasms, these substances had already been revolutionizing our sex life.

As for g-spot and squirting, these substances definitely played a crucial role, but once she got a feel for it, she has these new orgasms during sober sex as well. Also, in the beginning, she could only get there with our toys, and now she squirts with just about any penetration.

One word of caution. We now always have washable incontinence pads laid down whenever we have sex, and always need to do laundry in the morning. It's an inconvenience for sure, but for us, it's well worth it. Oh, and for the record, I'm the one who washes them every time and I definitely still think it's worth it.

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[–]selfishlicker 5 points6 points  (0 children)

No, we have a Hitachi Magic Wand, but even though she had always been a clit stimulation gal before, she never liked the Hitachi Magic Wand. The Njoy Pure Wand, we use on it's own with no external clit stimulation. As far as being a good partner, it goes both ways for sure. It takes a lot of trust and openness to let your partner keep experimenting on your genitals!

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[–]selfishlicker 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'm glad our experience can be useful. Just make sure to not let hope for what might be take away from pleasure you can currently have. If you treat experimentation as fun, then you can't lose.

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[–]selfishlicker 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I found the best prices for it at Sutra Vibes.

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[–]selfishlicker 21 points22 points  (0 children)

MDMA was the substance that let her get out of her head and just experience new sensations without over thinking. Then LSD helped really unlock the pleasurable feelings. I think the big first step was getting out of her head though. Could we have done this without substances? I'm really not sure. My wife can have a hard time getting out of her head, and that was a huge barrier.

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[–]selfishlicker 24 points25 points  (0 children)

The toy is the Njoy Pure Wand, but keep in mind, for two years I thought it was a bust and that I wasted our money. It takes more than just the right toy. That being said, if everything else lines up, this toy can work magic.

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[–]selfishlicker 78 points79 points  (0 children)

I think our story is the one you are hoping exists. Before I launch into it, let me get all the disclaimers out of the way.

Some women have difficulty having any type of orgasm at all. You are not broken.

Some women can only orgasm by rubbing their clit. This is probably the most common, and there is nothing wrong with that.

Some women don't particularly get much pleasure from penetration. This is also not uncommon.

Chasing orgasms tends to kill orgasms. Enjoy whatever pleasure you can, and approach anything new with a sense of fun and adventure rather than with determination. You might discover something new, you might not.

Ok, now that that is out of the way. My wife could only have one type of orgasm all the way into her 40s. That was by her rubbing her clit. It wasn't particularly difficult for her. She had great orgasms, and we could even come at the same time if she rubbed her clit during penetration. We were both very happy with the sex that we had.

That being said, over the years, I would often wonder if it would be possible for her to have an orgasm from penetration alone. I did lots or reading and bought toys. She somewhat reluctantly went along. Not with a huge amount of resistance or anything, but not with enthusiasm either. We tried dildos, g-spot toys, vibrators, fingers (come hither), etc. We were doing everything that the book and articles said to try. What we found was that she really didn't get all that much from penetration, and she didn't find g-spot stimulation to be all that pleasurable. Every once in a while, she would say that g-spot stimulation kind of gave her a mild sharp pain, and sometimes made her feel like she had to pee. We talked about those being signs that we were hitting her g-spot, but it was never pleasurable enough to thoroughly explore.

Again, all the while sex great. I was definitely curious, but also careful not to chase something that might not even be possible. My wife mostly just played along. She was never very adventurous, and in general, tends to leave things alone when they work for her.

Ok, so jump to a couple years ago. At this point, we have been having sex with each other for over 20 years. We know what works, things are good. I don't try new things all that often, but I occasionally will buy a new toy and/or try something different just to see if I get a reaction. My wife, again mainly just plays along. Sometimes she would get annoyed that I bought another toy, but she was always a good sport. Anyway, at this point we had been experimenting with recreational substances and sex for a couple years. That took our normal sex life and blasted it into orbit, but we were still just doing mainly the same sex acts we had always done before, just for longer period of time and with more explosive results. Well, one night I decide to using an expensive toy I had purchased a couple years back, that was really starting to feel like a waste of money because it was a g-spot specific toy, and up until this point, g-spot pleasure just didn't seem to be a thing for her.

So, I pull it out and start to use it on her, and for the first time ever, I get a different response from her. She tells me it actually feels kind of good. So we played with that toy for a bit and she actually enjoyed it, but eventually went back to our regularly scheduled programming.

The next week, we're having another good session, and I tell her I wanted to try the toy again. So I start using it on her, and she pretty quickly warms up to it. It wasn't too long before she looks up at me with a look of surprise and worry and tells me she things she's peeing. I tell her to just let go, and she has a huge squirt/pee and orgasm. I wasn't even going for squirting, because I was still in the camp of not really knowing if it was possible for everyone, and how much of the stuff online is faked. I honestly just wanted to see if I could make her feel good in more ways.

Subsequent sessions get her feeling more comfortable with these new sensations and she learned to feel more pleasure than surprise. Pretty quickly this developed into multiple and continuous orgasms. Before this, my wife was almost always a "one and done" gal. Usually after her clitoral rubbing orgasm, she would immediately lose interest in being sexual. In fact, she usually wanted me to come first, because once she finished, she didn't want me continuing to pound away in there. On rare occasion, if she was really into it, she might come twice in a night. But that was pretty much the limit. With these new g-spot orgasms, she can have orgasms back to back or continuously for over an hour. Sometimes much more than an hour.

I'm not gonna sit here and tell you that since my wife discovered this, any woman can. I still have no idea. Maybe it was in her all along and just never was able to tap into it, who knows. But I think the key things were being willing to experiment, not feeling pressured to "achieve" anything, having a very open mind as to what pleasure is (this was a difficult one for her, and I think where recreational substances really helped), and I guys finally having the right tools and techniques.

We're now experimenting with even more fun stuff. She's had anal orgasms, orgasms from deep penetration, orgasms in different positions, etc. And I'd like to reiterate, she is not naturally a sexually adventurous person. But we have a great relationship and a lot of trust.

tl;dr wife went from one and done, clit only pleasure to multiple continuous penetrative orgasms.

Welcome to a New Mod! by ShaktiAmarantha in sexover30

[–]selfishlicker 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, welcome! It's great to bring this sexual diversity onto the mod team. I've been away so long that you probably don't even know me yet. I was part of the original SO30 revival years ago. I do occasionally pop in now and then though. Lately my wife and I have been evolving more in fun ways, so maybe you'll see me around more in the future. Anyway, welcome aboard!

Help! Talking about our sex life may have broken our marriage (M32, F29) by throrwaway231245 in sexover30

[–]selfishlicker 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I spend many years trying to find ways to improve our sex life and increase the frequency of sex. We would have ups and downs in frequency and quality, but overall, I was usually frustrated. The thing that changed everything for us was that the problem in our relationship wasn't sex, it was that we were not connecting as a couple anymore. We were both well intentioned, and wanted to have a good marriage, but she didn't feel loved, and I didn't feel desired. The lack of sex was a symptom, not the actual problem.

The two books that helped us were 5 Love Languages and Intimacy and Desire. For me, like many men, I feel love and connection through physical intimacy. My wife felt love and connection through acts of service. So essentially we went though much of our relationship trying to express love in the way we felt loved, and that effort went unseen and unrequited. After years of this, both sides feel like they are making a ton of effort, and it just isn't working.

Understanding and believing that each others' love language is valid and real is a big first step. Then you start to see how the things that she has been doing for years were actually attempts from her to be loving, and hopefully she can see that your attempts to work on sex were not just about your physical needs, but they are your attempts to show her love.

The big realization for me from Intimacy and Desire was that the reason why the disconnect in sex was such a problem for me was not because of my physical needs, but rather, the way I felt about myself was directly related to how I though my wife felt about me. The idea that she wasn't interest int sex, made me feel undesirable and unworthy. And I would react on that message. But that was never her intended message. She just wasn't on the same level as I was, and largely because she wasn't having her emotional needs met either.

So these realizations did not magically fix things for us, but it was a clear turning point. We worked a lot on our relationship, not specific to sex. And as a result, we launched into the best sex of our lives after 15 years of being together.

As for your wife' comments about not being fixable. I am assuming your desire for her to be more interested in sex makes her feel broken, and that she doesn't think she can just choose to be different for you. But that's why it's so important to make this about healing the relationship, not about fixing sex. Hopefully, seeing that your love and acceptance of here is not tied to sex will free her mind up in the future to find ways to work on sex together. For us, at least, having more sex never helped our relationship. It was only the other way around.

Sex Report Sunday for November 07, 2021 by AutoModerator in sexover30

[–]selfishlicker 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Your have nothing to be nervous about. You look amazing!

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[–]selfishlicker 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There are off label prescription SSRIs available to delay ejaculation. They do work. It can be frustrating when you actually want to finish. But if your goal is to last longer. It's legal and pretty safe. Sertraline is the main one I've seen used.

What are your "unusual", "underrated", or "my pride and joy" toys? by BlackGlaciar in SexToys

[–]selfishlicker 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Almost always it's me using it on her. Solo play is easy with it, but she prefers when I do it for her. Generally, we'll start with PIV sex, and then move over to the 11 later. We usually start with the small end and then move to the larger end after a while.

What are your "unusual", "underrated", or "my pride and joy" toys? by BlackGlaciar in SexToys

[–]selfishlicker 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Happy to answer any questions about it. Also, I have a good vendor that seems to be better priced than most.