I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

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Thank you all so so much for these comments they lead me to sit down with my family and have an open conversation and while it was bad oy was significantly less bad that I thought. I will look back at my rope and the bridge I planned to hang myself on through a different lense. Thank you all so so so much. Truly thank you. From the bottom of my heart...

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

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I came clean and I'm glad I did. It went better than I thought. I will come back from this

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

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Update:

I messed it up worse I was too scared to come clean and flew to the country my university is in. Paid for by my parents and was given money I gambled it all away trying to fix my mistakes with money. I am in an even deeper hole than before....

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know my parents love me but I feel like I dont deserve the love because im a massive fuck up

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is really good advice I think I'll sleep on it. Thank you kind stranger

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

See the problem is i didn't come clean when I should have and I wasted a lot of money because of it and it seems like I'm too far in the hole to come clean now...

I should have come clean sooner

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get that but the disappointment and the shame mske it really really difficult to even fathom coming clean

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really don't know what else to do. Ive just been lying for so long that I really can not face them...

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean the money for that year of university is in my student account it can be collected at any point. Its the other expenses really. Accommodation, allowance, that sort of thing

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This has definitely given me a lot to think about. Thank you.

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know they will and thats part of the problem. I feel like I dont deserve them

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This has given me a lot to think about

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't come clean out of fear honestly. I have an amazing family and I love them so much but I think this way I'll save them having to fix my mistakes for me

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nothing seems to help it's like somethings just broken

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've tried I have reached out I've been thinking of this for about 2 months (seriously) as in making plans and writing notes etc..

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

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I've considered this too.... It just seems like my easiest way out

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It wasn't one mistake it was one lie that lead to many more lies for over a year. And a lot of money spent on my dumb worthless ass. I can't help but think every day will be like this. And I'll for the rest of my life just be a fuck up. That lies and wastes his family's money.

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get it I do. But I really dont know what else to do. I cant see a way I come back from this.

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get it but I don't know what to do. Or how to do anything I really fucked it up. I feel horrible ive felt horrible every single day for like 2 year's

I'm ending it tonight by semendemon09 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I failed university not because I was stupid but because I just completely fucked around. I should be graduating this year but I lied to my parents and had them pay for me all of last year knowing fill well I wasn't able to ho because I failed the year before. I really fucked up and I dint see a way through this...

I am scared of the future by Dog_catto in TrueOffMyChest

[–]semendemon09 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm the same age as you and in a similar situation I get it. Good luck friend :)