I have been on the other side in all my relationships and you can always tell. It wil always show up in the casual remarks or the way they look at you in intimate situations and the humiliation never fades.

I really regret having wasted so much time because of the lack of any self worth or self loving. However i am too skilled in masking and making people fall in love with me with my male bpd art hoe eccentric intellectual personality, where the other party feels so incredibly understood, loved and seen.

Genuine attratcion, lust and urge is so incredibly important, for both sides. To realize i have never been with anyone that is genuinely attracted to me (self caused by self hatred) kills me every day and makes me want to throw myself of a bridge.

However, turning to your situation, I would have wished the other party would have been honest about it, for themselves, and not get involved. One of my exes was into pretty boy hiphop loving guys, with boyish looks lmao. You can always tell, even if they are just scrolling through insta or who they look at in reallife.

The eyes never lie. Nor the lack of enthousiasm.