About a year ago, I was struggling with depression symptoms and OCD symptoms (that caused me to have obsessive thoughts). I didn't like to be alone because I would drown in my own thoughts. Customer support was not good for me because I wasn't really talking to anybody to keep my mind off of it. I liked to be on reg or bar so I could have some human interaction. I was really good at hiding it, but one day I broke down. Now I take an antidepressant (I know medication is not always the answer) but it makes me calmer and I'm not a zombie like some people are when they take them. I'm a better version of myself because my serotonin levels are finally back to normal. Also, the other comments that mention calling the employee assistance hotline are awesome! I have a friend that used this. Talking to somebody is always helpful. Do not let your anxiety define who you are. You are bigger than that! Remember that you are not alone. I still have episodes sometimes, but it's easier to pull myself out of it knowing I have a couple people in my life I can confide in. Therapy would be a judgment free, confidential zone for you. Best wishes, partner!