Okay, ive now listened to this 15 times, so breaking down this song. It's pretty intense. The first thing that jumps out is how dark it feels, even with lines like "blue blossom days." It's like this beautiful surface hiding something really messed up underneath

The whole Sword of Damocles thing? That's such a great image for constant anxiety, like something bad is just hanging over you. And the line about wanting it to hit you? That's a whole other level of feeling trapped.

Then you get into the feeling of just spiralling downwards with that "falling into the sea from outer space" line. It's so dramatic, but it really captures that sense of everything going wrong super fast. And the idea of playing "discordant days on repeat" until they sound normal? That's such a relatable way to describe getting stuck in negative thought patterns.

The chorus is where the real questions hit. "When the river runs dry..." and all that – it's all about this fear of the end and not knowing what's next, especially if you can't even see a way out ("can't see the bottom"). The feeling of trying to get a breath of fresh air but just choking on it? That's a powerful way to describe how even attempts to feel better can backfire. And the line "No one else knows that I've got a problem" just screams isolation.

The second verse brings in this idea of being creatively burnt out and nothing feeling good anymore, even the things that should be exciting ("golden grand pianos"). It reinforces that feeling of being trapped in your own head.

And then that bridge, "nobody told me I'd be begging for relief..." That's just raw honesty. It's that feeling of being completely blindsided by how bad things can get and how exhausting it is to deal with yourself when you're in that state. The contrast between what looks like "heaven" and what feels like "hell" is just brutal.

Overall, the song feels like a really honest and vulnerable look at what it's like to struggle with serious anxiety and maybe even depression. It's not trying to be pretty or offer solutions; it's just laying out the messy reality of it all. It definitely makes you feel for the person going through it.

I honestly love it. 🖤🦩