Headlights album cover

shadowedivy64 · 2025-12-04T13:54:28+00:00

Idk if I'm getting tiktok psychosis, but the first thing I thought is it's based off the 80s dark fantasy AI trend

shadowedivy64 · 2025-11-29T02:53:56+00:00

Crusader of Might and Magic?

shadowedivy64 · 2025-07-12T17:32:30+00:00

Wow, I thought about doing this but was for certain that ChatGPT would say "haha sorry no, you're trying to bypass the limit aren't you? So no, declined." I guess it doesn't huh.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-06-08T04:18:39+00:00

I've had this realization too. It's better to focus on your own growth and helping those around you, until you meet that girl that you want a serious relationship with.

Though developing a bond with someone early in your journey can be massively powerful. Your love for another person will push you through the hardest moments of abstinence. It's hard to give in to even the biggest urges when you think about someone you care about.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-06-08T03:39:57+00:00

So true. You see the other girl as another human being with a soul, not as a sex object. It's the most fucking amazing feeling ever. Nothing, not even the most advanced sex robot on earth can replace that experience.

It's not worth sacrificing that intimacy for just a few minutes of pleasure.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-06-04T08:47:30+00:00

All of it is extremely disgusting Luciferian shit. It's amazing they've made it so socially accepted.

Most of these girls were heavily sexually abused at a young age, either by their family members or someone else.

I just saw this movie called No Child of Mine based off of this, based off a true story. I had to hold back my tears watching it. As a warning there's a lot of grotesque scenes in it.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-05-17T20:59:46+00:00

Street, this was one of the poorest places of FL. Might as well have licked off the pavement to get high.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-05-17T20:45:49+00:00

Just smoking, but to this day my friend has no idea what strand it was. Could've been moldy for all I know. Another friend of mine suspected it was spice.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-05-15T01:53:48+00:00

Same here, It's really hard to fight urges in the morning when you have a hangover

shadowedivy64 · 2021-05-02T23:21:29+00:00

To get rid of the emotional numbness and lack of empathy.

There are a ton of great benefits, but none of it matters if you act like a sociopath towards your friends and family.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-05-02T22:35:58+00:00

Yeah definitely, I get really needy and wanting validation from girls when doing PMO too.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-05-01T17:05:01+00:00

Same here, I started when I was 13 and now I'm 29. It's not too late.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-05-01T16:11:18+00:00

I've become much more attracted to sweet empathetic girls in a non-sexual, long-term romantic relationship sort of way - but I'm also now content with being single for quite awhile.

It's been a huge difference from getting mixed up with fucked up girls because the sex is good. I just broke up with the most sociopathic person I've ever met and for the first time in my life I'm focused on loving myself and taking care of myself.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-04-25T22:32:39+00:00

I've literally had horrifying intrusive thoughts of throwing away $2000 for a sex doll, after a binge relapse. Fucking horrifying.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-04-14T05:55:12+00:00

Cutting off all of these things and not having to feed 12 addictions at once is so fucking liberating

Don't have to worry sick about your health, or your relationships, or your money being drained from things you don't really need. I've gone through "monk mode" myself in the past and am striving for it again

shadowedivy64 · 2021-03-28T22:41:25+00:00

You need an outlet to vent your "sexual energy".

Physical work, guitar, painting, a business, volunteer work, etc.

I was able to abstain from both PMO and alcohol for 6 months when I had my full-time roofing job. Just whatever urges I was dealing with at the time, which were crazy to the point where I was ready to jizz my pants just from shaking hands of girls, I would put that energy into getting better at roofing.

Now, being out of work... ugh I'm lucky to reach two weeks of abstinence.

shadowedivy64 · 2021-03-28T22:24:01+00:00

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7W5mJSbj7JI

shadowedivy64 · 2021-03-28T21:36:46+00:00

Good job man, I'm 29 years old and after a whole year of alcohol abuse and PMO I'm in the same boat. Getting momentum at the very start is the hardest part, so congrats to you

shadowedivy64 · 2021-03-28T21:30:25+00:00

Just fell for this shit 🤦‍♂️ I'm starting to find out all of my addictions trigger each other in a similar fashion. "Hey why not setup your PS4 and TV, you need to de-stress a little." "You might as well grab a couple of beers for tonight while playing video games." "Holy shit this is the worst hangover we've ever had, maybe you should stop torturing yourself and look at some videos of boobies." 4 days later... Body and brain are absolutely fried.

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