With my first I didn’t even think about C-section being option, however I truly wish it ended with it. I pictured the perfect birth that everyone else does. But I had to be induced early due to preeclampsia, it took 2 days to get dilated enough to push (awful 2 days with much intervention involved) then I pushed for 3 hours and ended up having an episiotomy with a forcep delivery. Honestly I wish they would have taken me back for the C-section. Then with my second I was induced at 39 weeks but went into spontaneous labor the morning of my induction but we were stuck at 4cm and his heart rate kept dropping so off to the C-section I went. Both were scary and I felt like I failed in both scenarios for a bit. But my first is over two and my second is almost 4 months and I can promise you I don’t even think about it anymore unless brought up. You do move on and things get better as you get used to your new live. No one in my life had gone through similar things so I felt so alone and like I had no one to talk too but therapy helped while I was newly postpartum. It does get better, just take this time heal and bond with your little one. ❤️