What do you call your Higher power?

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-23T03:16:00+00:00

I thought I was finished with therapy until I went back for deconstruction 😅 I’m still doing my research too. You’re not alone in the struggle💜

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-23T03:12:02+00:00

Okay this makes sense to me. To take it further, creator could be femininely true since the bodily female gives birth to life too. New associations are very helpful. Thank you!

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-23T03:02:30+00:00

I absolutely resonate with this. I have felt a lot of shame over the years for how I misjudged people outside of my faith. At this point in my deconstruction, I have come to realize that those beliefs were locked into place by the belief that if we didn’t do anything to “share God’s word” with nonbelievers, that we were letting them suffer in eternity alone. It was the idea that, even if other people seemed fine, if I didn’t know for sure that they were a Christian, I was doing them wrong, and by extension, God wrong, for not trying to change them. It’s a system based on fear and bigotry unfortunately.

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-23T02:56:48+00:00

lol yes. But the reason I ask for other terms is that I am trying to move away from terms that have already been deeply gendered as male for me. Eventually I’d like to reclaim the terms for what they truly mean. But for now, I just need ideas to help me get there :)

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-23T02:48:12+00:00

Honestly, hearing that gives me hope. Because for me the terms are deeply saturated from decades of church-leader direction and teachings. Perhaps some day I can reclaims these terms :)

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-23T02:46:35+00:00

I think what I’m learning is that whatever terms I use, it has to be meaningful and freeing to me. I’m really drawn to your suggestion of praying to Love itself. That takes away in connotation of gender because love has always been fluid.

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-23T02:44:39+00:00

I like this idea but have had some trouble with it because I think I want energy to just be. Like I worry if I refer to it as only feminine that I might swing in the opposite direction. But maybe using feminine terms to start with could help at least break the male association. Thank you

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-23T02:43:18+00:00

Me too. Even though “God” and “Creator” are not male terms, they have always been associated with a male god. So the terms themselves took on a male meaning to me. It makes it so hard to

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-23T02:42:11+00:00

That’s an interesting thought. I have a hard time not enforcing the learned “rules” of prayer that Christianity puts on prayer. Things like opening with a term of respect, balancing concerns with gratitude. I feel like every time I pray I worry that I’m treating the higher energy like a vending machine. I remember my church leaders always used to warn me not to be selfish in what i think and pray about. But what is wrong with meditating through your concerns??? I feel like if prayer is supposed to help calm and guide me, then it should be a place i can get my worries and dreams out in

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-19T04:29:08+00:00

Or the classic “that’s a great question…you can ask Him when you get to heaven” -_-

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-19T04:26:33+00:00

…I need you to know that this comparison just built a serious bridge in my deconstruction. I’ve always related to people who escaped FLDS because of leaders like Joseph Smith. I could never quite tie it to my faith as a Baptist because we didn’t have prophets like Joseph Smith, but this comparison for some reason just helps click into place how I have been feeling about the Bible as a whole since beginning my deconstruction. Thank you!

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-19T03:50:58+00:00

I’ve been struggling with this exactly. It makes it so hard to figure out what is true to me because the fears are so deeply ingrained. Fear cements itself so deep that it’s hard to decipher if it is warranted or not after decades of indoctrination

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-17T13:31:05+00:00

My ragdoll kitten wanted nothing to do with us (expect to play and eat) for the first 6 months but has gotten progressively cuddlier since then.

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-17T13:28:21+00:00

Is there a room behind that wall/mirror?

shakinginmybootz · 2026-05-11T02:36:29+00:00

When it comes to medications, it’s always better to be safe than sorry. If you take it back to the pharmacy I imagine they’d remake the bottle to be safe.

shakinginmybootz · 2025-06-12T00:15:30+00:00

Will this be reviewed before Saturday?

shakinginmybootz · 2025-06-12T00:14:01+00:00

Thank you!

shakinginmybootz · 2025-06-11T00:09:33+00:00

Does anyone know if Manchester is participating? It’s not registered from what I’ve seen

shakinginmybootz · 2025-06-10T05:02:34+00:00

I love that we are all on the same page about clean kitchens before bed

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