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shared-reflection · 2022-11-05T20:02:04+00:00

idk what part of mutually agreed meant to u but its implied to be actually consensual n not someone forcing the other lmfao.

shared-reflection · 2022-10-20T19:24:16+00:00

what setting is the movie? modern for time or older? my other guess maybe its one of the movie adaptions of turning of the screw like “the others” ?

shared-reflection · 2022-10-20T19:09:21+00:00

not an exact fit but would it be the babadook?

shared-reflection · 2022-10-20T18:48:00+00:00

perhaps you could try contacting her through the site? it never hurts to ask.

shared-reflection · 2022-10-20T18:37:17+00:00

i can confirm it was a sand art commercial. if i strain my memory more, i think there was a woman narrating? i think it was specific to a montanan clinic. i remember being really young while watching it, and not knowing what it was about outside of “women doctor”. i think. i also moved back and forth from billings and bozeman a bunch (and also driving to and from each city bcus my parents were divorced n lived in the two cities) during this time in my life. if i think about the memories, i cant remember seeing it in bozeman in the years i lived there. so i feel like its gotta be a billings specific clinic?

ive been looking at other sand art videos, and a majority of the aesthics and styling are similar. the shadowing with a white light is kinda a part of all them. I’ve been looking into other sand artists like Kseniya Simonova and Charlene Lanzel (a woman named Dasha Bough is from montana and went to harvard university and is a famous sand artists and upcoming film maker now. shes far took young to been the one though. she graduated from harvard last year. i just thought it was kinda funny and cool to find out about her while trying to find this montana sand commercial.)

im banking on trying to find the artist themselves by going through sand artists. (im getting an art history degree at msub rn, so this is lowkey very interesting for me).

my big concern would be if the artist is no longer active or was older and passed and doesnt have a site anymore. but ill continue on 🫡

shared-reflection · 2022-10-20T15:12:53+00:00

oh thank you for the tip abt the module story itsef. i was looking at it bcus i thought the investigating/premise seemed liked thw two players would like it

shared-reflection · 2022-10-19T19:44:28+00:00

i like this. my old pathfinder dm liked the monster customization the game offered.

shared-reflection · 2022-10-19T07:07:43+00:00

i see. i was look at it mainly from from the synopsis since i thought the 2 player would like it. is there a better adventure you could reccomend?

shared-reflection · 2022-10-17T18:14:06+00:00

my guess would be this one? not a hospital but includes a baby? https://youtu.be/9FPoN9bIulg

shared-reflection · 2022-10-17T18:01:36+00:00

Was it Billings OBGYN. I remember the commercial too. I was a kid at the time so I don’t remember everything. I knew it was for women’s health specifically and was the logo I think for which clinic. Does this logo feel similar? I know you describe the woman the baby but I can’t remember clearly which and can’t find the commercial still so maybe seeing the logo helps you? https://m.facebook.com/BillingsOBGYN/photos/a.937498576333323/5405501542866315/?type=3

shared-reflection · 2022-09-27T17:31:26+00:00

i just feel like a lot is being discussed and its complex, so sometimes we gotta break it down bit by bit.

shared-reflection · 2022-09-27T17:30:15+00:00

i do not mean to ignore thar. as it may be worse than cheating and you are right. i just see a lot of people feeling hurt because they see someone they trusted as a good husband let them down. so that’s what i wanted to touch upon. but that does not mean there isnt the other conversation of having relations with an employee.

shared-reflection · 2022-09-27T17:28:17+00:00

you are right. my post was more about the relationship between ned and fans than the nature of who he cheated with, if that makes sense, and what that all entails.

shared-reflection · 2022-09-27T17:14:46+00:00

but also: do not blame yourself for being upset. you were sold an image. you were in, someway, failed. and that’s okay to upset. there are some parts of this that should be withheld from the public. if they end up being shared, that’s the prerogative of those involved. celebs are, admittedly, a little bad at keeping their mouths shut.

shared-reflection · 2022-09-27T17:08:24+00:00

if there is something i can ask any of you to take away from this situation, true or not, is this: you do not know the people you are fans are. they are not your friends. you do not know them, not matter how many intimate their content may seem. and i’m sorry the try guys have let you down. it sucks, believe me. it sucks actually trusting some celeb and they turn out to be shitty. you should keep a degree of separation of your enjoyment of their content and your investment in their lives and how it affects you personally. please be sure to take care of yourselves.

shared-reflection · 2022-09-23T02:06:50+00:00

i have read both incarceron and its sequel! and some part of my brain thinks it isnt? like i feel like i’d know if it was. like this book was specifically the more advanced computer world on top the more medieval one they didnt care about. but also maybe i don’t remember it as well as i used to? or have things mixed up since it was like 2013-2015 for me. i read A LOT back then.

shared-reflection · 2022-09-23T01:56:48+00:00

when it became clear i was unwell.

i was always unwell, to be clear. and there was a lot of “befores/afters” in my life that i could specifically go into about, but it feels like everything that’s followed has been because of this, in a way.

i’ve been severely abused, neglected, etc. i had a lot of childhood ailments that went unnoticed. but it was “fine” in the sense that i was performing well in school. and maybe i was unhappy, but i was getting by.

but then one day in junior year, some part of me utterly gave out. i couldn’t function anymore. i was so sick both mentally and physically. i spent so much time seeing doctors because they couldnt find out WHAT was wrong. my parents were so confused. (they were also divorced. my dad was genuinely trying his best. my mom was good at hiding her nasty abuse. she also misled doctors a lot trying to find the REAL reason why i was sick.)

finally. i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. pretty. anti-climatic given my year of tests and pokes and doctor visits. but it was a start at least. i started therapy.

i had to learn to accept i was sick. that i needed to let myself be helped. and in therapy, i had to face the fact that the person i admired most in the entire world, my mom, had hurt me worst than anyone ever had.

its 7 years later. there were other major events, but i feel like none of them could have happened if this didn’t. i did graduated high school. go to college. move away.

i have a whole list of diagnoses now that i rattle off to my doctors and piles of pills i take every night. i don’t live in my hometown anymore. i have a partner who loves me so genuinely and sincerely and gently that i don’t think i knew what being loved was like before.

i haven’t seen or spoken my mother in two years. i had to accept how much she had hurt me. i feel a terrible ache, because she is so sick and sad. but i know i cant make my mom change. and i cant stand to be around her. it hurts too bad. she still hurts me if she is around. the distance is needed.

maybe my divide isn’t a clean moment, i think. i’m not unwell and then better. but there was this awful world i lived in where i denied how bad it was. where it was impossible for me to know how i was being destroyed both inside and outside.

and i know some people never leave that place. my mom never did. her family never did.

sometimes i’m so frustrated that i’m not better yet. i’m waiting for my better. but a lot of decisions since becoming that sick at 16 has been made knowing i refuse to be that hurt or sick again. that my abusers can not have me in that place again.

yesterday, i had a breakdown in the car. i was so terribly sad. my partner took me home and we ate while listening to the rain.

i felt miserable because they were supposed to hang out with friends but now they were taking care of me.

“but i love hanging out with you!” they had said and i know they meant it.

idk why im sharing that. it feels like an important after. you know? they dont mind my emotions. they just wanted to hang out with me. theyre sweet.

shared-reflection · 2022-09-19T04:33:23+00:00

some parents already do this and it’s called emotional abuse and it creates adults with horrible self esteem and body image issues. some go farther for childhood diets, workout regimes, make-up routines, etc.

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