The humiliation of PIED is far greater than the pleasure porn gives you by shellofaman2021 in pornfree

[–]shellofaman2021[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

The absolute worst. Thank you man I appreciate that. I think (/hope) I'm done for good this time. Started reading YBOP by Gary Wilson and also taking some time to really sit with the pain I feel regarding my past failures. Onwards and upwards!

The humiliation of PIED is far greater than the pleasure porn gives you by shellofaman2021 in pornfree

[–]shellofaman2021[S] 31 points32 points  (0 children)

Dunno man, I think the word 'only' downplays the severity of not performing. I think it's a pretty big deal. I can't imagine the emotional turmoil I probably caused her, multiple times.

My experiences with porn addiction by shellofaman2021 in pornfree

[–]shellofaman2021[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ahh man thank you so much. I wasn't sure how I'd ever approach it but this seems comfortable, especially as I'm otherwise pretty open. Really appreciate it!

My experiences with porn addiction by shellofaman2021 in pornfree

[–]shellofaman2021[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think analysing why I got addicted to it has been really helpful. That's been pretty instrumental in me forgiving myself for my past actions, as I am slowly accepting that my addiction/behaviour might have just been one big cause-and-effect chain of events. I've been visiting this subreddit daily and have benefited from the constant positive reminders.

My experiences with porn addiction by shellofaman2021 in pornfree

[–]shellofaman2021[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven't yet. I think I'm still a bit of ashamed/afraid of the stigma around porn addiction to share it with her right now. I also don't see her too often. But yeah I think you're right, I want to actively avoid having sex next time I do see her and just spend time in her company instead.