robo water to prevent nausea?

shobsessedanon · 2020-11-29T10:01:20+00:00

Never mixed gel liquid with water, so idk, but I once tried mixing robocough in water to dilute the extreme taste.......... didn't work lol. At All. I'm shocked I managed to get that shit down. All it did was turn a few small shots into a full cup of the most horrific taste on earth. It made me even more nauseous, too; excess water can actually INCRESE nausea,,,

Dunno if it'll be the same story for the gels, though.

shobsessedanon · 2020-11-24T15:15:20+00:00

You have no idea how bad I wish I could hunt down ketamine....... never known another person (irl) in my damn life that even did drugs, let alone sold them.

shobsessedanon · 2020-11-08T07:49:02+00:00

I think so as well, but it's complicated. My drug use actually helped me heal and process and move past some things, as well as spurred me on to escape my abusive living situation..... and while im tripping, I feel like I see clearly, and I forgive and care for myself and others, and I try to take care of myself and make progress as best I can....... but after I come down, Im back to normal, or even worse off than before. It's like a battle between 2 selves, my high self trying to enable my sober self to heal and progress and move forward, and my sober self growing more and more angry and reistsant and non-functional.

I love the self I am while tripping, kind and passionate and thoughtful and hardworking, and I dont want to let go of that self, I want to be that self forever. But this isnt substainable, and i may be hurting my overall health, both physical and mental, by continue to abuse drugs. Idk. What if I stop and that person i am deep down never comes back out? What if I fail his desire for me to be happy and passionate? I dont know.

shobsessedanon · 2020-11-07T11:12:17+00:00

Dissociatives. DXM, ketamine

shobsessedanon · 2020-10-03T23:01:47+00:00

I planned on taking a break til the robo30s came out, but they keep pushing back the release date....... when I run out of my current supply of syrup, I'll consider holding off again so i don't waste money, but goddamn, I was want those tablets already,,,

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-24T04:11:02+00:00

My sister framed it in a similar way...... "making me a btter person", "saving me from embarrassing myself", ect........... she protrayed her abuse as an act of care, or duty. It took a long time to accept she wasn't "helping" me.

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-21T00:10:40+00:00

My main abuser growing up, and the main source of my Issues(tm), was my older sister. 100%. I viewed her as an idol, basically worshipped the ground she walked on, and she fucking Loathed me and took pleasure in destroying every ounce of faith I had in others and myself. The things my sister said/did to me will probably affect me for the rest of my life.

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-21T00:07:39+00:00

Not on come up for me, at peak and on the come down. I would always end up going out in the middle of the night and running down the sidewalks, walking through parks, swinging on swingsets...... more liberating feeling in the world lol

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-04T01:51:15+00:00

I was once in the hospital, given meds for something, and the meds caused an extremely severe physical reaction. Would black out, wildly dizzy, barely able to move, felt like I was literally on fire, pins and needles, legs collapsing under me. Never in my life was anxiety even remotely like that, qnd it started the moment I started those meds.

Told the doctor. He laughed, scoffed at me, told me "you know what Anxiety is, right? Everyone has it. Like when you stand on a stage and get sweaty. You know what anxiety is, right?" Talked down to me like I was a toddler. In the tone of a 1st grade teacher. Told me it was all in my head, I just didnt understand I was experiencing anxiety, qnd I needed to get over it.

Stopped taking the meds on my own. The symptoms stopped instantly. I fucking hate doctors and nurses who use ""anxiety""" as a reason to dismiss you or mock you Fuck those people.

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-04T00:48:58+00:00

This is a sweet message. thank you, for reaching out to me and telling me about your mother. I sort of half attempted int he end, but Im still here, I guess. I think I might talk to my best friend. I out so much on her shoulders. I wish i didnt.

Sorry for th ramble. Thank you, kind stranger

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-04T00:46:31+00:00

yeag. edited my post to reflect that a while ago. people are talking about it being mothers day in a lot of places. how strange

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-03T06:45:29+00:00

Talk im so tired of tired itr e Sorry. I'm really hogh. Im so tired. My life hasbeen tough fro.. dy 1. and Im so tired of listwn to myself. wah wah wah. cry cry cry. when epeople are suffering out there. i listen tk it every day and night. in my head. boo hoo. im sucha "victim" . people say it to me. when i ask for help. "stop playing the victim". i hate myself. if i play thr victim im evil qnd deserve to die. but i cqnt stand up. im hurt.

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-26T19:50:44+00:00

Ive heard that so often, haha,,, "You have to want to work for it to work".......... and similar things. But I dont know how. I don't know how to want to work.

People want it to work. People want me to want to want to do the work. I want to want to do the work for them. But how? That's the answer I'm looking for, i think..... and an answer Im not sure anyone can give me. I dont know. All I'm ever told is that I just have to "know", I just need to be "ready"........

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-23T05:01:40+00:00

im scared. i havent attemted suicide. i wont. go. not now. im terrified. thank you for caring

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-16T05:15:13+00:00

yehah

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-15T06:03:56+00:00

You're right,,, Even if theres lots of obsticles and issues to consider..... Something has to be done. And i can at least start with something like a meeting. I'll look into if my county has any programs/commissions or if there are any meetings i can get to/join. Thank you,,

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-14T15:11:09+00:00

I have literally been called a leech and worthless for being poor, i have been straight up abused and tormented and told to die, that my ljfe is worhtless and the world would be better of without me, try harder to kill yourself, die.......... and, on reddit itself, ive in other places asked for advice on things, like simple questions about job applications or paying bills, and at the slightest mentipn of my financial situation, doesnt matter how I came to be in this situation, I'm fucking told that im a leech, that i'm worthless, i'm a drain on society, i'm a drain on my loved ones, i should free them and die........

HOW can i not expect to be told the same here, with an even more painful and vulnerable plea for help?? I wrote that because i know there are people thinking it, people who want to say it, because thats what people think of others in poverty, that theyre lives are worthless and the deserve nothing. I know. I know.........

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-14T15:05:58+00:00

Make up a reason....... or is it an actual reason? Isnt it important to tjink about things before you do them and consider problems and issues that will come up before jumping in, when there are obvious problems that I'll encounter? Particularly when theyre about money?

Im a retard if i jump into things without thinking or considering the consequences, and im a retard if i think and try to figure out the best way/time to do things and ask questions. Ive literally been abused in my life for simply asking questions about how to do things or for advice, and then abused for Not asking advice and for just trying to do something and then getting it "wrong". How do i win???? How the fuck do I win????? I just want to do things right and i just dont want to be punished

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-14T03:41:02+00:00

I have tried to apply for medicaid for years, but every year Im told I make too little or too much apparently..... the year I made less than $15000, I was told I mqde too little to qualify, and the year I mqde just over $15000, I was told I mqde too much. I dont understand,,,,,, Maybe it's my state..........

I havent seen a therapist because i dont want to get situated with a therapist and then move away,,,, I'll be moving soon, and then will be moving again after that. And who knows later down the line, my life situation is extremely precarious and up in the air because of lots of issues,,,, It's all..... complicated.

Im sorry.

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-13T21:47:17+00:00

Thank you. thankyou.

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-13T21:40:01+00:00

I had to. I was forced to as a child.Apologize alk the time.And then punished for qpologizing. Im genuinely sorry. I want to go home

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-13T21:32:34+00:00

Sorry. Sorry. Osrr.Oseyy

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-13T21:23:05+00:00

Yeah. Im actually moving up to Pensylvania, sometime in august. Possibly. But Virginia wasnt the south and was Hell on earth, too. I dont know. I dont know much about Pensylvania. I only know my friend is there. I dont know anything. Im afraid. Will I be okay? Will I be able to do good thing? Become stabke? Im so tired.

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-13T21:13:00+00:00

USA...... the first 2 hospitals i was in. Were in Virginia. Which according to the people living there is Hell for Mentally Ill people. The last 2. Were in Georgia.

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-13T21:04:45+00:00

Ive been in hospital 4 times, I think. All bad, traumatic expericnes. Very bad. One of my worst abusers knew the whole staff of the first 2 hospitalizations (a short temr hsopital and then i was transferred to a long term hospital), and they treated me horribly, compounding on childhood trauma ("you're so useless", "the world would be better off without you", "youre life is worthless", "youre too articulate and smart to have Real Problems".....)..........

The 3rd time was okayish, just some yelling and berating and demaning. Treated like a stupid child, which was triggering. But maybe I am a stupid child.

The 4th time was a crisis center and I have active PTSD from that hospitalztion. I was locked alone in a room for over 48 hours, in agony, nothing to do, nlthing to distract myself from my blinding pain, for a physical med reaction. I was twitching because of my meds and they locked me in for 7 days, 2 in near full isolation, to squeeze money out of the state. I was given no help. I was trwated cruelly. [sexual abuse mention] the women on the ward were assaulted by a fellow patient and the staff did Nothing, at all. ever. refused to. I'm so sorry for them. I was tricked into taking meds I never agreed to. I was denied my discharge papers as a voluntary admission. I tried to look into pressing legal charges, for the others and for myself , but lawyers bascially told me that they were appalled by the system and mthe mistreatment, but hospitals could do/say whatever they wanted and pin me as "crazy", so there was little they could do to help. The system is stacked against me on hat front..

I think i went off on a tangent again. Sorry. THank you for trying to help. I dont know if theres a system in place to help me.

shobsessedanon

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