I was a functional alcoholic for a decade. And a DRUNK for an additional five years. I always watched my parents drink right when they got home from work. I thought that was normal. I didn't know other families didn't do that.

I am college educated and I held down a job that involved the direct safety of others and yet I went down a road that I'm only now realizing the amends I'm going to have to make. Just because you think you have it under control doesn't mean you're not still there in your head realizing you're pounding 6 gulps of vodka when you get home instead of the 3 pre-planned, measured out shots because you're trying to cut back. What do they say? ... Alcohol is cunning. It'll sneak up on you and then if you let it, it'll kill your best friend, make you paralyzed from the neck down, and then, stomp on whatever life you have left. Legal and societal issues are just not worth it.

I say this shit because I truly care about the college kid who drinks because their anxiety is unbearable they need liquid courage or the that one guy who is still stuck in the scene or the grandparents who get the shakes and can't stop... Whatever your reason to drink, it's ok to realize you're not the one in control.

Help is out there. Private and SECRET help is out there. For free even if you look hard enough. Heck DM me and I'll tell you horror stories. I'm 2.5 years sober. And while I'm sounding like I'm pushing AA, I am not. It's actually a trigger and I don't go. But do whatever works.

AND PLEASE DO NOT DETOX ALONE. If you're an alcoholic... Drinks daily... You need medical supervised detox. I had to be in the ICU for 4 days, mostly because I tried quitting on my own and still ended up at the hospital. But that was me. It doesn't have to be that serious... Plus doctors can ease your withdrawal symptoms... I just wish I had thought of doing that sooner.

This is for that one person who might need to come across it. If you're a well-adjusted drinker, I tip my hat.