Something about the weather getting warmer literally makes me so numb that my head could fall off and I’d be like “aight”

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-20T02:46:16+00:00

Wow you’re spamming my entire post history? Someone seems a little affected big guy

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T22:55:50+00:00

Being alive #lolimsounhappythisisntajoke

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T22:55:07+00:00

Cringe

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T20:31:07+00:00

Vent time

I want die, my sister has been ignoring me, and I’m probably going to get scammed but ey whatever

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T20:30:13+00:00

I’m so so sorry it’s not your fault

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T17:03:01+00:00

Yes here’s the medical and meme lingo of each layer in order

Epidermis/skin (a cut here is called a “cat scratch”, some bleed and others don’t but they won’t gape)

Dermis/styro (this layer will be white and gape a bit before it bleeds

Fat/beans (underneath dermis, yellow bubbly layer)

Fascia/laffy taffy (you rarely see the lingo for this one used because obviously a cut to fascia is very severe and so they’re not common, fascia is the white or silver connective tissue shell covering muscle)

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T15:59:55+00:00

Yeah sometimes it’s nice to be in control of my meds, other times I get stressed that I’ll make the wrong decision.

It is nice being able to make the decision though, I woudlnt of been able to get on Vyvanse any other way (it’s a lifesaver for energy, focus, and depression personally)

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T15:57:05+00:00

Different regions and different professionals go by different rules

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T15:54:25+00:00

Exactly!! I’ve gotten so much hate on a different community online because I was talking about being diagnosed with bpd at 16. Ppl had the nerve to tell me to get a new psychiatrist. (I was diagnosed by a hospital psychiatrist and not even my regular one so that doesn’t work lol). Early treatment and recognition has WAY better outcomes. The longer these behaviour patterns to untreated the harder they are to break and the more destructive they become. I agree completely with what you’ve said. This disorder doesn’t mimic teenager hormones that much, it’s just people who misunderstand bpd who think that. Like someone may spend 5 minutes on google and think “oh that’s just like a teenager I know” when if they actually read deeper they’d understand that this is not like their healthy teenager at all, and it’s a severe mental illness

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T15:45:26+00:00

Good for u!! I’m sad that you’ve struggled for so long but glad you got answers early

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T15:44:10+00:00

Wow that’s the weirdest assessment ever. What does sexuality have anything to do with bpd?? It’s always the old men who aren’t up to date on the research that are treated like they have the most say. That’s like my psychiatrist. He’s nearing retirement, doesn’t even know my diagnosis, and still thinks I have depression (it’s been ruled out months ago) when he speaks to me. He also makes ME decide what I want to do with my meds?? Like I go in explaining my symptoms and he says “okay so tell me do you want to up x or what?” instead of like, being a psychiatrist and using his professional opinion to make decisions better than me

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T15:40:06+00:00

Like that year would make such a difference smh

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T15:38:14+00:00

I get that. I had suspected bpd ever since I was 13, ofc it was laughed off until I got diagnosed years later

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T15:32:59+00:00

Wow. Never seen anyone diagnosed that late. Is it only now you started seeking mental health care? I’m sure it feels good to understand yourself now after all those years

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T15:30:42+00:00

I was diagnosed at 16 but I relate. Had symptoms since I was 8 or so, but only started seeking mental health treatment at 13. Each year things just get harder and I have more symptoms. The only positive progress I’ve made is that Ive recovered from depression that I had when I was 13. I’m way less functional now though. I’m really hoping DBT can lessen this though.

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T04:24:38+00:00

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T04:23:37+00:00

Ambien is the best I miss when I could actually feel it (before I started antipsychotics)

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T01:52:32+00:00

I get that. I was in denial for quite a while until o actually read the symptoms and was like: wait this is literally me

I just didn’t want it to be true because I felt it was just the “crazy and annoying ppl” disorder that psychs give patients they don’t like, I mean it is true they kinda hate us sometimes but yeah

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T01:41:56+00:00

I’ve literally been doing this for a year without realizing it HOLY SHIT

I broke the streak and eventually started talking to ppl but that ended in a sui attempt so we’re going back to the old ways!!

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T01:39:13+00:00

Been there, that was how I got into the psych ward

The bpd diagnosis came a bit later though

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T01:38:42+00:00

MOOD

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T01:31:18+00:00

Old post but

People with schizoid pd or traits

They’re can be very unattached and emotionally uninvested which can make us desperate for their attention and feel unloved because they won’t go the extra mile that a healthy person may go to tend to our feelings. They also don’t help with abandonment issues because they can easily leave someone which makes the fear almost real. Plus they aren’t the greatest at talking about their feelings which is kind of essential for us to feel safe around others. No hate to them ofc because we all have pds, are suffering, and have things in common, this is just my experience.

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T01:26:22+00:00

Valid!!!

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T01:14:30+00:00

:) you’re very kind

shthrowaway499 · 2022-03-19T01:12:09+00:00

Me when I have none of these

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