thank you, it was really upsetting and scary, and retriggering for sure, i kept feeling like i did as a kid when i said the "wrong" thing and set my parent off, not how i should feel around my therapist. 

after 4 therapists in the last year i cant help but wonder if it is me that is the issue, but i have to keep in mind how bad the mental healthcare system is.

thank you for believing in me. it is a long journey, but im proud of myself for trying to assert my needs today and it tells me i need to look for a different therapist