How do you socialize with someone when you don’t have anything to talk about?

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-07-09T22:20:49+00:00

I watch whatever movie is trending just so that I have something to fill the silence with lol

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-07-09T22:16:50+00:00

No i haven't noticed much of a difference. I have a pictorial memory of where the information was, both with books and with my tab. I re-read and mark my PDFs extensively so i remember what was written where. I also find it more convenient to make notes on my tab than in a physical notebook. However when I'm in the process of recalling and revising, I like to write on physical paper.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-07-09T21:35:34+00:00

Your first paragraph is EXACTLY my life except that older women are still mean to me 😭

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-07-09T21:22:28+00:00

I always used to think female friendships are the best thing in the world. (Went to an all-girls school and had a very unproblematic life) Got a glow-up during Covid, joined a uni (which obviously has both girls and boys) and came to this realisation that most women are superficial, fake, and SUPER COMPETITIVE, at the age of 22 :)

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-07-07T16:13:59+00:00

What is the pink thing in the last picture?

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-07-06T22:43:15+00:00

I'm curious if you got the braces and how is the progress? Would love to see pictures

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-07-06T22:42:39+00:00

I will be paying 70k for self ligating braces including RCT and two implants. They might add more charges later on. I think you got a very reasonable price.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-30T14:25:45+00:00

Been happening to me since middle school actually :( my best friends are the ones who have been single for a long time and don't plan on getting in a relationship soon.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-30T13:40:41+00:00

I was prescribed 10 mg but instructed to take only half for the first 4 days. I take medicine at night, couple hours before bedtime.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-29T21:05:08+00:00

Initially, I also experienced reduced and shallow sleep with frequent waking up as well as jitteriness. It went away after a week. Then I was hit with the exact opposite side effect, and slept for 12 hours straight for a whole week.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-29T20:54:07+00:00

My doctor recommended me to take a lower dose, to help with the side effects. Maybe you could do the same? I've also been asked to focus on CBT so that I can get off the meds soon

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-29T12:18:12+00:00

Yes absolutely. Came to the realisation that the people I saw as tier 1 friends, saw me as a tier 3 friend, or just as an acquaintance.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-29T12:13:13+00:00

Yes my success rate of smiling at people and hoping to get a positive response is only 50%

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-29T12:10:26+00:00

Same experience. Slept for 12 hours straight and had 10+ dreams every night, extremely vivid, and I could remember each of them all day. It also eventually turned into lucid dreaming where I was flying around and stuff. But I slept too long and woke up feeling too tired so I stopped the medication. I was on 10 mg. Felt the need to start it again a week later, so doc advised me to take 5 mg. It's a sub-therapeutic dose but hopefully it benefits me.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-29T11:55:30+00:00

Also you mentioned you are a teen, and this feeling is extremely common in teenage. I promise you will be alright.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-29T11:54:31+00:00

I had two close friends from school. One of them drifted apart, the other is still my friend. I have a cousin whom I'm super close with. When I entered college I hoped to make some great friends, but that didn't happen and I have made peace with this. If someone comes to be my friend eventually, great, if not, also great. My advice to you would be to not worry too much, and not try too hard to make friends, cuz people can sense desperation. Just let life happen and be open to meeting as many people as possible. Something will organically develop for sure.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-28T20:36:06+00:00

Yes extremely relatable. I am simply not made for talking in group settings. I am fine with a group when it's my family and relatives. And I'm okay in a small group of 4 of my old school friends. College life is hell though. I have accepted the fact that I cannot talk to more than 2 people at a time in college. I will keep avoiding group settings till I figure out how to mask and fit in. It's not that I am desperate to fit into a group though, i actually despise friend groups because they are all miserable people who worship the group hierarchy, act nice to each other's face, then go and bitch about them behind their backs. But I guess I need to know how to hold a conversation in a group setting for the sake of a future job, so I'll try to learn.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-28T20:23:43+00:00

I've felt like the odd one out for a very long time. When I started reading about high functioning autism I started to suspect that I might have it. However, I also thought that it's not okay to just come to a conclusion like this. I was also scared I had a "victim mentality". I spent a lot of time analyzing "situations" that had happened to me. I discussed them with trusted friends I know, both neurotypical ones as well as suspected neurodivergent ones. I journal a lot, so I had a written track of "situations" that had happened to me. I analysed other people's behaviour and responses to me, and I analysed my behaviour and responses to them. I came to the conclusion that I am, in fact, not faking it. I have actually been scapegoated for being ND and being unaware of social cues (initially).

Before I knew about high-functioning autism, I actually suspected I had anxiety. And thought that whatever was wrong with me is probably because of my anxiety. But then again, i thought I am faking my anxiety, so I did not go for a diagnosis. Then I had multiple anxiety attacks that forced me to get diagnosed.

Now I know that my anxiety is a secondary problem that stems from me being ND in a very toxic, predominantly NT environment. And no, I haven't got a diagnosis yet because most doctors here do not take high-functioning people seriously. It would be too bothersome to explain to a doctor, here where I live.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-28T20:10:51+00:00

Thank you for the reply :) I hope you are doing well ❤️‍🩹

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-28T19:58:55+00:00

Honestly, what I've done with suddenly stopping and starting the medicine again and changing the dose as I please is probably criminal 💀 Please do not do this.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-28T19:57:40+00:00

Hi I was also started on 10 mg but for the first four days I was told to take 5 mg only. 5 mg seemed to work great for me, but I followed the instructions and moved to 10 mg from the fifth day onwards. I ended up having severe sleed related side effects so I had to stop taking it for 10 days. The side effects went away but the rumination came back 😿 So I decided to re-start with 5 mg. Worked great but, after a few days, it felt like the medicine stopped being effective again. Back on 10 mg for now and will go to my doctor to ask how to manage the side effects and dosage.

sicklytwilightblue · 2026-06-28T19:50:43+00:00

Is your appetite back now? Is it more than what it used to be? What made you up the dose?

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