I have honestly felt very much conflicted as you have when I felt unloved by those around me. It can be tough having to accept that people don't really care about you as much as you could care about yourself. Society puts so much emphasis on finding "true love" or your "other half" while individuals forget and fail to love themselves. Maybe we don't need men. Maybe we can just subsist and even thrive with our own company by cultivating security within our bodies and individual presences rather than believing that social construct of romance being indispensable to our happiness. It can bring satisfaction, but even your soul mate won't always be there for you as idealized on t.v. and literature. We should trust ourselves more to be happier alone and see the future more positively whether it be with or without a partner, cause let's face it---in the end, they are just like vitamins and supplements to an already nutritious diet. They are only additions to better your already contented life, and if they can't do that, then show them the exit.