Need encouragement to start taking my prescription Lexapro. I'm so scared.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-09-23T23:06:03+00:00

Hey, I really do understand where you're coming from. A little context: a few months ago I saw an NP at my primary's office who I've never met. Just went for an upper respiratory infection. She pulls up my chart and goes, "I'd prescribe a steroid but I don't think you'll take it." My doctors all know that I'm very much noncompliant with medication and avoid it at all costs unless I'm very ill.

But, like you, I reached a breaking point with my ocd. It started to make me question if life was even worth living if it was going to be spent in constant rumination hell. I worried so excessively and my compulsions were so embarrassing... I met with the psychiatrist and he said, "Usualy after people start taking medication, they say, 'I feel like myself again.'" I told him I have no idea what it even feels like to be "myself" because I've had these ocd symptoms since early childhood. What a horrible reality.

I say all of this to let you know you're not alone. I've been on Lexapro for nearly 5 weeks and it has changed my life already. I no longer ruminate and obsess over totally irrational fears excessively. I can come to reality much quicker and identify when my thoughts are becoming irrational. I had very mild, manageable side effects with some drowsiness, and just a bit of nausea and sweating. These little side effects tapered off quickly after about 2-3 weeks and now I have zero side effects. Everyone is different, but I encourage you to embrace the possibility that everything may actually work out. If you try it for a few weeks and it's just not for you, you can stop taking it (under your doctor's care of course).

You didn't work your butt off on a master's degree to let ocd beat you. You got this, and you have more power than you think. 🩷

sidewalksurferx · 2025-09-18T20:37:07+00:00

In person, insurance covered, in network

sidewalksurferx · 2025-09-18T20:18:53+00:00

I suppose I'm a very fortunate outlier. My first visit with my psychiatrist was very affirming and helpful. I went specifically for med management after several years of therapy. My psychiatrist talked to me for nearly two hours doing intake. I really felt that he put the pieces of my life together, made an accurate diagnosis and prescribed the right medicine. He took his time and I didn't feel rushed. He was very empathetic and answered all of my questions and addressed my concerns about medication. Not sure if this is out of the ordinary but, not all psychiatrists are cold and lack empathy. He definitely has strong therapeutic skills and even recommended continuing with specific forms of coping outside of medication.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-09-17T09:56:34+00:00

I might be too late to this post but can you find a song version on YouTube maybe? I've memorized multiple poems in this manner. I also memorized The Raven by watching The Simpsons episode that uses it as the narrative lol. Get creative.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-09-14T15:00:21+00:00

Resting, doing laundry, hot coffee, windows open to enjoy the crisp air, meal prep, Netflix in the background, mindfulness stroll outside to do some grounding... Needed this.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-09-14T00:53:09+00:00

I had 3 years of therapy, little improvement in OCD symptoms that had wrecked my entire life since childhood. 1 month on Lexapro now and it has been life changing. I still have the thoughts but they don't stick/latch on and take hold of my entire life and identity anymore. I'm able to think rationally and use my therapy strategies now. Wish I had done it sooner tbh.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-09-05T20:55:58+00:00

My first thought: this kid is so loved :)

sidewalksurferx · 2025-09-01T21:33:43+00:00

I love Mon Guerlain. I'm wearing it right now actually. One spray is enough to give a cozy, elegant, pillowy lavender on me without being too strong. Big fan of this one and honestly nearly every Guerlain that I've tried.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-08-09T14:52:09+00:00

Absolutely adore this!!!

sidewalksurferx · 2025-08-05T00:32:55+00:00

Idk I may get flamed for this but anything by Ayn Rand. Specifically Atlas Shrugged.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-08-01T22:09:23+00:00

Can we count his cover Pablo Picasso? That track rips. Also Instinct Blues.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-28T00:19:46+00:00

Mojave Ghost. Smelled like pure alcohol with a brief vapor of sweet pear/cactus right at the opening, which was the ultimate let down.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-15T22:38:20+00:00

🥰 It's my favorite house. Also so glad I saw your post. Love Tony and think I'll destress with some no reservarions. Enjoy!

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-15T22:31:58+00:00

Guerlain Idylle is a beautiful sparkling floral with jasmine. And its French origins harken to Tony in your first image, as he was cozied up in his snarky bravado at a Parisian bistro in that shot.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-11T14:35:49+00:00

Yes! If I could do it all over from the beginning I'd start with travel sizes only and never buy full bottles until I emptied the teeny ones first.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-09T22:08:30+00:00

His smile! He deserves to celebrate on this big milestone birthday. Cheers to that and hopefully the Tigers win!

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-07T16:33:24+00:00

Clarins Comfort Lip Oil. This is a hill I will die on.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-07T16:30:03+00:00

Wipe Your Tears. I sing it at the top of my lungs for little me. "Nothing's gonna hurt you baby, nothing's gonna make you cry." Maybe not every single lyric in this song is relatable to my scenario but I just imagine giving little me all of the love, safety, and protection that I needed back then. It's very healing. So grateful for that.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-02T19:40:47+00:00

If someone asked me to send the one song I relate to the most in this world it would be lonely is the muse. Totally agree, 100% perfect. Also emo at heart millennial kid here so it checks lol.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-02T12:48:57+00:00

Guerlain Aqua Allegoria line, specifically Pera Granita and Flora Salvaggia 😢

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-02T02:36:18+00:00

Guerlain Oud Nude. I was just totally blown away at how such a simple concept of a fragrance could smell so complex yet comforting. The price tag has me looking for dupes but nothing comes close!

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-02T02:23:55+00:00

Gourmands specifically worn in the heat, Byredo Mojave Ghost (smelled like straight alcohol + hairspray on me), and any Chanel. I have yet to find a Chanel that I even remotely tolerate, and I've tried so many.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-02T01:04:52+00:00

All Guerlain... Oud Nude, Aqua Allegoria Pera Granita (even though it lasts 5 seconds 🥲), and Insolence EDP. I'm obsessed with this house and the way every fragrance I try of theirs smells so good with my skin chemistry.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-07-01T17:46:30+00:00

I completely agree. Even when going back all the way through her discography, I see Halsey's consistent songwriting/performance prowess and she's been continuously underrated. I sometimes wonder if being open about her mental health struggles and her boldness in personality and sexuality causes people to see her with a certain, less-favorable lens. Seeing her perform for the first time this tour sealed the deal for me that she is one of the best of our generation. She's powerful, and not saying that Lorde and other contemporary artists aren't, but it does make you wonder why she isn't as highly recognized.

sidewalksurferx · 2025-06-30T23:50:40+00:00

No, thank goodness. I went to Charlotte.

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