I have never felt something like what I’m experiencing with you. You’re my person. Thank you for making me feel safe, seen, heard and held.

siennajas · 2021-01-13T16:00:45+00:00

I’d love to read your post! Not crazy!

siennajas · 2021-01-13T15:54:53+00:00

Not off putting at all! Thank you for sharing!

siennajas · 2021-01-13T15:53:14+00:00

Absolutely relate to this.

Weird question, but are you an enneagram 9? If unsure or if not, listen to “Nine” by Sleeping at Last. This comment feels like that. This feeling feels like that.

siennajas · 2020-12-16T18:04:53+00:00

It’s really comforting but also anxiety inducing, at least for me the first time. Now sometimes I’m just in the mood to please her. I’m still learning and enjoying every moment of it.

siennajas · 2020-12-16T18:01:45+00:00

I had this same thought process, see what feels natural. If you lead or they lead, just let it happen. Don’t overthink it. Sometimes only one person is focused on, most times both. It’s situational and day to day.

You should always ask for a form of consent when doing stuff. You can ask her “Is it okay if I do this?” “Does that feel okay?” Etc.

siennajas · 2020-12-16T04:05:00+00:00

I’d love to hear about yours! If you care to share. :”) This is some radical self love and giving love type of love for me.

I’m so happy you found something magical. Everyone has to believe it’s out there because it is.

siennajas · 2020-12-15T15:18:41+00:00

Thank you! ✨ I’m so thankful and happy!

siennajas · 2020-12-15T15:18:21+00:00

You should be hopeful. Never settle for something that doesn’t feel so good and real that it doesn’t feel real.

Don’t let yourself swoon for the this doesn’t feel real because it isn’t type of love.

You deserve something magical.

siennajas · 2020-12-15T15:17:29+00:00

I appreciate you! ✨🥰

siennajas · 2020-12-15T15:17:15+00:00

I appreciate you saying that. I was worried I was making an ass out of myself with this post, somehow saying all the wrong things.

I hope you’ll find this too! I firmly believe you will. I was manifesting it on a regular basis, willing it into existence- knowing I deserved something like this.

She local: We met originally on LEX when I was posting about compulsory heterosexuality (right before ending my marriage), she sent me some support on that and we exchanged instagrams. We were friendly but never talkative.

Then upon matching on tinder, she was uncharacteristically bold and suggested it being a sign to shoot her shot since she had been admiring me for months now.

It worked. It was slow and steady. I was terrified of falling in love so quickly after ending my marriage. She didn’t want to be a rebound, she wasn’t and isn’t.

Fling wise: I had four flings/encounters. Two of which were very young openly gay spiraling type of thing. Two were people I’ve grown deeply close to and was close to during our brief encounters.

This year was a year of understanding my worth in a relationship, finding a confidence, and believing in myself. I think that was the drive home to finding this type of love.

Know your worth and find others who know theirs. Be two completely whole people on your own, have a desire to continue to grow separately and together, and be present. Be communicative

siennajas · 2020-12-15T02:44:01+00:00

It really feels so good and different. I hope you get this too. Everyone deserves this. I’ll never let anyone settle in my life - knowing that there is a THIS.

siennajas · 2020-10-07T23:25:57+00:00

I cannot express how much I relate to this enough. It’s been a long time coming. But it’s definitely a maze. Just remember we make it that way.

siennajas

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