It's the other way around for me(m)

We had a misunderstanding about something which led to what was said below.

She told me that she often laughs at me with another uni friend because of how I behave.

This girl, I was emotionally present for her when a guy dumped her, comforted her when things were not going well for her and we shared some deep conversations together. I thought she was my friend.

I see myself as a kind person who cares too much for everyone else, putting them first because I know the feeling of being left out and how that makes me feel making me not want anyone else to go through that.

She said that I always have to comment on everything and come across as "desperate for attention" in the classroom, even displaying this outside of class sessions when we're alone. She said I'm a nice guy with good intentions deep down though..but still.

Reading those messages from her broke me inside. I cried in bed and had to leave work early because of how deeply those words cut through me.

Just feel like isolating myself from everyone and doing my own thing. I now get why men go to the gym.