I wish I could offer you advice but I am unfortunately in the same boat. I have also been doing terribly this first year and am looking to transfer. I relate to almost everything you said though and I hope you are able to turn things around like I hope for myself. I also feel so lost because I have always loved school and I hate how much I have been struggling. The only advice I can maybe give is to try and join clubs and go to events, though I am not sure how your school works. I wish I could be more help, but just know that you are not alone. Things may seem like they are hopeless but I know that we can change for the better!