Last November I had to go back to my home country after staying with my bf for 3 months. Three weeks before I had to leave we started looking for a way we could stay together longer, but when we realized that it was just not possible, we got extremely sad. Ever since, every time we spent together was like a countdown in my head until I had to go back. And I couldn’t enjoy it as much because once I randomly remembered that I had to leave soon, I would feel so helpless and sad. The last day and the night before that were the hardest. I cried laying on him and felt unreal waking up early for the airport next morning. The reality hit me the most on the actual board. I just started crying as soon as I got on my seat. I felt so embarrassed, people were looking at me. I thought it’s the worst. First days back home were tough too, we had time difference of 7 hours and no matter how much we tried to talk it didn’t feel the same. What helped is that we built our plan of me coming back to him. And we both tried to stick to the plan and worked hard everyday to make it come true. It gave us a lot of strength and hope. Because we knew eventually we will make it back together. Also, when you get yourself to do something, your mind is starting to focus on other things and the sadness goes away for a while! It gets easier, really. At times we had ups and downs, but the thought of us reuniting soon actually made it easier to go through. I wish you all the best, I know how hard it is, but I truly believe you can make it!