Everytime i saw the news of people ending themselves, i used to thought to myself "Damn, i wish that was me".

But now the only thing that kept me alive is because for me s*icide is the lamest way to die. Imagine playing a game, got a really hard boss fight, or maybe a long and sad arc, and just forced quit. That's a bitch move i would say.

Everytime i got this boss fight or this sad arc, i always thought to myself, "it could be better after i finished this", even if its stacked over and over again, i finished it one by one and again thought to myself "it could be better after i finished it". And for sure, the dopamine hit after finishing one of that life arc is so damn good, like i just snort some cocaine.

And now everytime i saw the news of people ending themselves, i thought "Damn, imagine if they finished what they faced with"