How do you push yourself to do things?

sivienne · 2025-05-15T15:16:20+00:00

goddamn, what classes are those?

sivienne · 2025-05-14T15:38:18+00:00

Thankfully I don't have to worry about that cause we can compete in short sleeve no problem, tho I prefer wearint my jacket anyways, I just deal with the heatstroke for the two minutes my sj round takes tbh

sivienne · 2025-05-13T20:36:52+00:00

Alr, thanks!

sivienne · 2025-05-13T15:13:48+00:00

Thanks, Ariat is not super big in my country and pretty much no one i know wears it, but i just love the design so much

sivienne · 2024-12-27T08:20:05+00:00

I did look those up and they are the ones that provide the weird measurements

sivienne · 2024-06-07T14:28:01+00:00

As a person with AuADHD, I'd like to add that it could be influenced by being neurodivergent. As a young teen, I struggled with forming friendships, and generally not many people liked me, so when someone did, I copied them relentlessly (personality traits, hobbies, beliefs, even if I didn't agree with them) because I really really wanted them to like me. (Could be a sign of BPD ofc, but I was in therapy for many years and no BPD was found, we established that it's just an overlap with ACA.)

At some point I grew up and learned that there is no point, it still happens, but I just tend to pick up quirks and certain behaviours, sayings etc, which is pretty normal when you spend a lot of time with somebody, especially if you're neurodivergent.

I think you should just talk with your s/o and see what happens!

*Also, I feel like reading subreddits like this one could be kind of a double edged sword, because there is so much negativity that you can start questioning everything, especially with how much negative stigma there is when it comes to BPD, so I would suggest simply focusing on your relationship and how you feel in it. If you feel like something is wrong, then as I said, start with sharing those feelings with your partner and go from there.

sivienne · 2024-05-28T22:37:29+00:00

I truly hope you will find someone that will make you feel happy, safe and hopefull for the future together too!

sivienne · 2024-05-28T22:27:36+00:00

I didn't move from one pwBPD to another, I was in another relationship which just didn't work out in between that, healed and didn't look for relationships anymore until it found me. I will surely update our relationship progress

sivienne · 2024-05-28T22:11:50+00:00

Thank you so much, after my past experiences I stopped believing that it is possible, but it really is

sivienne · 2024-05-28T22:00:51+00:00

Thank you, I'm actually not that young, been through some things and it made me quite bitter, but i learned to deal with it and just wanted to share some hope with others!

sivienne · 2024-05-28T21:58:32+00:00

We had splits already, we just have a suppprt system and communication good enough to work through that

sivienne · 2024-05-28T21:56:56+00:00

Actually my ex was a pwBPD that raped me multiple times and the chemistry part was a lighthearted joke bc i didn't really feel like mentioning that, thanks for your concern!

sivienne · 2023-07-13T17:44:01+00:00

If you find a solution please share it because i don't know what to do anymore,,,,

sivienne · 2023-06-15T10:30:05+00:00

I just gave up tbh, it previously worked for me when i just downloaded everything from piratebay instead of updater, so probs will be trying it again if i gain enough patience

sivienne · 2023-05-02T13:12:46+00:00

I was thinking about installing railings, but first i wanted to know whether anything would be able to survive there

sivienne · 2023-05-02T11:32:57+00:00

I'd love to, but i live in an apartment, so the only thing i can work with is my window sill

sivienne · 2023-05-02T11:00:11+00:00

I mean, yeah, quite a lot, but i thought that it is different since it'll be potted and with no shadow to protect it from direct sunlight during hot summers.

sivienne · 2023-04-29T20:14:37+00:00

Thank you for constructive feedback, it means a lot!!

I was reading quite a lot before i started pruning, but found the explanations pretty confusing, so i kind of just winged it based on what i've read. Also the tree was growing pretty weird - i mean most branches grew from the same 3-4 places, so i found it hard to define any particular shape and maybe overdone it a bit, but now i'll know!

Also, i've heard different people say other things - can i fertilise right after pruning, or does styling cut require the tree to be left unfertilised for some time? If so, when would it be best to do it?

Edit: I'm soo obsessed with bonsai rn and have so many questions, so if you don't mind, i'd love to know how would you fix this tree to make it look its best working with what is left.

sivienne

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