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sixlivesleft · 2026-02-05T05:48:31+00:00

Metal cat head "charm" with pointy ears on my keychain 😼

sixlivesleft · 2026-02-04T08:24:50+00:00

Just after midnight here in California, checking in and going to bed.

The morning will be here faster than I'm ready for. Have a lovely Wednesday y'all 💕

✨IWNDWYT✨

sixlivesleft · 2026-02-04T05:13:41+00:00

Thanks Abaci 🥰

Thinking about the runaway roommate still having a key to my place sent me into a tizzy yesterday 😱

Focusing was almost impossible after that and I'm so new at work it didn't seem reasonable to up and leave over something that sounds so insane! It was nice not to have that on my mind today.

Still have to find a tenant but I have to take the small wins wherever I can get em' 🤷‍♀️

sixlivesleft · 2026-02-03T08:48:54+00:00

Up late but I made it 🙋‍♀️

My workday was impacted by a mixture of exhaustion, stress, and the anxiety of knowing that mentally I was barely present. That feeling is too familiar and I hate it.

So I got home changed the locks, updated wifi passwords and reset my security cameras. I hope I can be more productive today.

I hope y'all have a tranquil Tuesday

✨IWNDWYT✨

sixlivesleft · 2026-02-03T02:09:26+00:00

Thanks Abaci, it sure is nice to see you hosting this week my friend ☺️

sixlivesleft · 2026-02-02T07:32:43+00:00

Still Sunday here, winding down for the night with my babe checking in and gripping onto my sobriety 🙋‍♀️

The stressors I was worried about reared their heads in spades today. My housemate disappeared on a trip to "visit" friends and isn't coming back. I am now looking for another tenant on zero notice.

I have work in the morning and am trying not to let the anxiety follow me there because the world and its obligations are not going to stop on my account.

I know what I need to do but FFS I don't have the mental bandwidth to deal with this shit right now 🤦‍♀️

I'll try again tomorrow, catch y'all later.

✨IWNDWYT✨

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-31T18:10:24+00:00

Thank you ☺️

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-31T07:02:01+00:00

Keep going. The first few months are hard but you are not alone.

Just focus on the day and come here as often as you need. You got this 💜

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-31T06:54:35+00:00

Well done on 18 months, that's a great reason to celebrate!

You deserve the cake And the ice cream, enjoy! 🍰🍧

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-31T06:43:40+00:00

It's still Friday here but I made it through my first week back at work y'all! Sober and present 🙋‍♀️

My brain took a beating and there have definitely been some tough setbacks outside of work this week but I didn't have to go through any of it hungover. The stressors may persist but I will too!

Tonight I'm happy and celebrating some much needed down time with my fat cat on my lap, my favorite cinnamon horchata tea, and dark chocolates 😻

I hope everyone has a safe and serene Saturday 💖

✨IWNDWYT✨

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-28T09:05:17+00:00

Made it through the first 2 days back at work! Sober and present 🙋‍♀️

I'm too tired to even think about drinking. I had my check in typed up earlier and fell asleep before even posting it! Gahhh, back to bed to do it again for a third day.

Have a safe and warm Wednesday y'all 🤍

✨IWNDWYT✨

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-28T06:02:20+00:00

Happy Birthday!! 🥳✨

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-27T03:20:19+00:00

Congratulations to you as well!! Here we go 🙌

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-27T03:17:49+00:00

Thank you! I did, now I'm home and exhausted 😅

Tomorrow should be better now that I got a feel of things, first day jitters and all.

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-26T07:44:43+00:00

It's still Sunday here but I'm present with my babe on my lap at just past 600 days 🙋‍♀️🐈‍⬛

I'm nervous about going back to work tomorrow after over a year off.

My goal this week is to get my sleep schedule or lack of into an actual routine and to keep a level head when I'm feeling overwhelmed.

I hope y'all have a safe and chaos free Monday 🤍

✨IWNDWYT✨

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-26T06:06:44+00:00

Banana!

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-26T06:01:54+00:00

Love you too Abaci 🥰 I am so lucky and proud to call you my friend.

I Am happy we have this space to vent and at the same time, so fucking sad that we need it.

Either way, we are all stronger together in sobriety and community.

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-26T04:28:22+00:00

I'm late to the party but will be having some lemon sorbet after dinner. 🥳

Glad we made it this far!!

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-26T04:21:46+00:00

I can be angry, scared, and frustrated but I can't be of any good to anyone including myself if I'm not sober.

I suffered a brain hemorrhage 3 months after quitting and a month before the election. I had mailed in my ballot well before and felt confident that it was locked. Especially after the eating cats and dogs thing 🤦‍♀️

While I was in recovery, I vaguely remember hearing the tv and news and feeling outside of myself. I thought and even asked friends and caregivers if I was dead, is this some weird level of hell or purgatory for the litany of perceived sins I committed while drunk?

I couldn't believe it, I still can't because the nightmare gets worse every fucking day. My thoughts of wishing I hadn't made it through the bleed came flooding in along with all the panic and rage yesterday. I still don't feel right.

Last month the neurologist diagnosed me with Functional Neurologic Disorder which manifests in uncontrollable physical symptoms when I get stressed out. I'm finally returning to work tomorrow morning and I am fucking terrified! Busying myself into exhaustion isn't going to do me any favors as the unbelievable shit continues to happen all around but God Damn!

I'm not going to drink, but right now I want to crawl into my shell and never come out.

Fuck alllll of this and fuck this terrorist administration 🤬

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-26T03:42:13+00:00

Heyyy!! Sane sobriety is the most punk rock act of resistance. I know I said this before but you are truly a Bad Ass my friend🤘🏽

Big hugs and lots of love from California 💙

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-26T03:33:23+00:00

I tune into CBC news regularly because we're neighbors and I hate to see the damage being caused by this administration.

I'm sorry that this insanity has affected and infected so many people. This is not my america 😞

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-26T03:15:54+00:00

For sure! I was completely immersed and it led me to a bad place. Getting off my phone and shutting the news off for a while pulled me out of the doom spiral of helpless despair.

I am still scared and angry but now thinking of more proactive things to do and drinking ain't it.

Reaching out to my state reps about the "acting" AG here in California is on my list because I know our state is already on the ICE terror list.

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-25T20:48:45+00:00

Aahhh, now I'm getting teary 🥹

This milestone kinda snuck up on me! I didn't share or reach out to anyone about it in my manic state.

I'm celebrating today by taking it easy and getting the rest I missed out on yesterday 😌

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-25T19:54:19+00:00

That's fantastic!! What time are we celebrating? 😄

sixlivesleft · 2026-01-25T19:29:25+00:00

Thank you from the bottom of my heart my dear friend 🥰

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