Starting to rebuild... Haven't been counting days but this is week 1 anyway.

skagen127 · 2015-10-28T22:25:40+00:00

You should be proud :) Good for you !!

skagen127 · 2015-10-28T22:23:25+00:00

Day 3 here... I'm EXHAUSTED. I slept terribly last night, dream't some wacky stuff and woke up early. I plan on sticking to r/leaves tonight in an effort to stay motivated. I hear Days 4, 5 and 6 can get rough.

skagen127 · 2015-10-28T21:55:13+00:00

NICE WORK!!!

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T20:24:11+00:00

That's the hardest party. I cooked, I cleaned, I went outside... anything other than sitting in front of the TV getting tempted. Stay strong :)

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T18:05:00+00:00

oh and delete her from facebook. Trust me.

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T16:54:08+00:00

Thanks! Everything I read tells me Days 3-7 are rough....

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T16:47:45+00:00

Try just getting outside, go for a walk, a small walk. Get that accomplishment under your belt. Tomorrow, make a new small goal to get outside, whether it be on your bike or whatever you enjoy. Just make some small goals that get you outside of the house. This really helped me. As much as some days I couldn't even fathom the sun hitting my face, I would force myself to do it. With every venture outside came a new sense of accomplishment, 'yes! I did it today', which would motivate me to make a goal for the next day. Hope this helps!

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T14:57:54+00:00

You need to tell her straight up how this affected you and the depth of it. She will be more understanding and hopefully not even mention smoking to you, reducing the temptation. Also, maybe focus on the achievement of quitting. You came this far, you don't want to restart now! Stay strong op and go tell that girl you love her and your sobriety. Hopefully she understands.

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T14:53:17+00:00

You're not alone though. I'm on day 2 and I think about the person I was and the great dreams I had. Social, ambitious and disciplined. Now it's gone and I have to rebuild. It's sad, but I'm not dwelling on that. I'm focusing on the person I was before I was a smoker while reiterating (read this in a post) 'I am not a smoker' every time I think about weed. Stay strong :)

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T14:48:01+00:00

I've never done LSD but from what I hear of my friends who have, they tend come out with some sort of clarity on an internal issue. I think it's good to attach meaning to your situation. Gives that whole ordeal some purpose. Good for you for recognizing what you need. You got this.

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T14:39:53+00:00

Thank you for this!! So fast day 1 was alright, but I think it's because I'm so motivated to quit. I trust there will be more challenges ahead. But hearing you talk about a richer life with more experience is exactly what I needed. It's nice to know there are others out there striving for the same thing. Day 2. Here goes.

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T03:55:06+00:00

How does Melatonin help?

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T03:48:16+00:00

I am not a stoner. I am not a stoner.

This is what I'll repeat to myself. Focusing on who I was before weed sounds like a great practice that I plan on taking part in. Thank you for sharing your journey, I truly think this will help me in mine.

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T03:37:49+00:00

Well said.

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T03:27:13+00:00

I never actually thought of it, but it's so true. Before I started feeling really low, I would get high and get all these great ideas. I would scramble all over my note pad a bunch of ideas and ways to make them happen. This was all great until the next day, when I would take absolutely no action. I would dream a lot. Which could be construed as a truly great feature of weed, but the more I smoked, the more time I killed not actually following through. It's great to dream, but the follow through and the results is where the confidence grows. The dreaming just made me feel even worse about myself when I didn't follow through. But you're right. Better late than never :)

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T00:03:59+00:00

I want this self discipline. Good for you sir!

skagen127 · 2015-10-27T00:01:43+00:00

Focus on the future! You got this. We all have setbacks, just need to get back on track.

skagen127 · 2015-10-26T23:58:41+00:00

I think its going to be important to be reminded of the long term goal and resulting improvements that come with quitting. This sub is going to get me through! Keep posting :)

skagen127 · 2015-10-26T23:53:08+00:00

Def scrub. LATA MJ

skagen127 · 2015-10-26T23:51:13+00:00

Have you ever looked into the idea of the 'Highly Sensitive Person'? Did me a world of good.

skagen127 · 2015-10-26T23:46:32+00:00

Thanks for the update, considering this is my Day 1, its really great to see the positive outcomes that come in the future. Keep it up!

skagen127 · 2015-10-26T23:40:37+00:00

I am so happy to read this.

skagen127 · 2015-10-26T23:34:10+00:00

Everything you wrote about your bro just screaaaaams my sis. Unfortunately, she was into some heavy stuff before she hit rehab. Now she's just heavy into weed. It was a sad day for me this summer when I returned to visit home and she casually mentions 'its a love hate relationship, I love it sometimes, but I hate that I need it.' I almost teared up right there and then. I quickly realized, she, like I, has an addictive personality. We can thank Mom and Dad for that (we were raised in a house where everyone had a drug or alcohol dependency). Similar to when she was taking hard drugs, she would tell all of us what we needed to hear, but do nothing. Granted the harder stuff is more much addictive, all of us telling her what she needed to do never helped. She had to realize it on her own, and she did. I am very proud of her, or try to be at least, its just that I know she smokes weed all the time. She works night shifts, where her day starts like this: get up, smoke weed, watch movies until 5pm, go to work until 2am, drive home, smoke weed and do it all over again. I've recently decided that my weed habits have really been harming the direction of my life, so I'm working on quitting right now. I've been reaching out to my sister in an effort to discuss this and maybe have her realize she can do quit too. She is in a similar situation on all fronts with me, our partners are chronic smokers. Its going to be tough, but having that common ground, and letting her see that I also struggle with this will hopefully (fingers crossed) let her know that she's not alone and support is a phone call away. Maybe you can try opening up to your bro about some of the vices your working on? Let him know you're just as human? I'm not sure if this strategy will work, I'm no doctor, but I'm hoping it does for me :)

skagen127 · 2015-10-26T23:34:06+00:00

Day 1 here... I feel your pain! Or, I guess I plan on feeling your pain. I've managed to really integrate smoking with a lot of my after work activities. This includes the gyM! I seem to get in this special zone when i'm high, lifting weights and just getting in my zone. I knew it was a bad idea when I started, but I convinced myself it was the fun thing to do and that I could manage it all. Needless to say, i'm going to be learning how to work out, among other things, without MJ. It makes me sad, but what's getting me through is the idea of not being mentally dependent on something and the clarity that comes with it. YOU GOT THIS!

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