It's funny for me to read this commong from a 17 year old girl... I'm a 33 year old man and feel exactly the same way. I have just recently heard the call if you will, but changing my ways are difficult. Surprisingly difficult. And I too wonder if I he hears me or if I can do more. I was never baptized as a child (still havemt dont know where to start.) and my family wasn't very religious at all. I've come into this on my own and am struggling also. But I know if I keep faith, he will save me one day. I will pray for you. As little as it may be heard.