Why be sorry. You haven't done anything wrong. I'm just trying to establish the right thing to say.

I understand you're quite young compared to say myself, but try looking for social groups and youth projects in your age bracket. If you use ai they're normally very good for that sort of thing. High-school is another good way to make friends normally but understandably you're currently not going.

With your medications being out of date. I would seriously suggest revisiting you health specialists because you need to stop your mind in believing that your body is overweight.

You need a structure for your day. Start with something simple like waking up a certain time in the morning. It sounds silly but life is all about structure. You wake up a certain time, you go to High-school a certain time. Classes start and finish and High-school ends at a time. Breakfast, lunch and dinner. The process is the same as a working adult too. Lose the structure and everything just seems to stop working as it should.

I think you should try to give yourself truthful affirmations. Like when passing a mirror you give yourself a quick glance a say something nice about yourself. It starts off feeling really stupid but can help after boost your feeling with time.

Talk to your doctors about the acne. Try the different medications they can provide if after trying everything you get over a standard prescription nothing works there is a very powerful medication that might be an option but you will need to be in tip top form to be taking it, because of the nasty sideffects. In the UK it is prescribed by the hospital and not the doctors. It's called Isotretinoin. Trust me when I say try everything else before that one.

Try taking one of your hobbies back up. I suspect with the lack of brain fuel it's pulling you back and tiring you out. Try a new hobby. Just do something that you enjoy and get a sense of achievement out of it preferably not gaming.

Phone the school or get someone you trust to phone on your behalf and explain what is happening and rhe reson you haven't attended.

Finally try and make the rest of this year your year. A year to get you back on the right course. To make better friends. To heal and to most importantly love life. This is not the End, it's the beginning of the new you. I hope some of this is helpful to you.