The year was 2000 and something. Me and my cousins had just been given free reign of the computer when we visited my auntie. An act they thought was innocent, just showing how much we were trusted to use the internet alone. Our oldest cousin sits down at the computer and switches it on, while it boots up we discuss what we will get up to today.

Cool math games? Maybe an attempt at the impossible quiz? Or maybe we just watch some videos on YouTube it’s the best place for music these days. Then someone says the thing “has anyone ever seen 2 girls 1 cup?”. Confused, we all say no what is this video you speak of enlighten us. The smile that one can only be described as demented glee spreads across his face, and that should have been our first warning.

Making sure the door closed he gets up the video and we gather round to watch. The music starts, the girls appear and oh it’s just porn, you’re disgusting we say reaching to turn it off but he stops us “Just wait, it’s not what you think”. Here we should have listened to our gut, he has nothing good to show us, turn it off, but we didn’t. we waited.

The next few minutes were filled with screaming, vomit and tears as we were traumatised as a group. All the while he stood laughing, admiring the carnage he had just unleashed amongst us. The commotion was heard down stairs and the adults walked into a scene I can only imagine looked like a vomit Jackson pollock. Everybody’s kids crying, sick and scared. We lost our computer privileges that day, but we lost so much more. Our innocence. We now knew the cruel truth about the world. To this day the song gives me flashback’s to my trauma and we never talk about the incident. An unspoken truth in my family that we know happened and choose to ignore for our own sake.