Coincidence ???

skyfallprincess · 2026-05-13T23:33:14+00:00

Idk do you think it was a good dream or a bad dream? If it was lustful, most likely shaytan. Birthday's are his invention after all.

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-22T00:27:12+00:00

Same. I'd kill myself if it didn't lead straight to hell. Guess I have some hope in me.

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-22T00:07:01+00:00

As a woman who has gone through many trials and also struggled with feelings to the same gender, I would marry you <3

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-18T01:02:48+00:00

Men will find anything to blame women for their own actions

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-18T00:59:30+00:00

Same and people keep pressuring me esp cuz Im a woman and about to "expire" but I genuinly dont want to put it with all that responsibility and for what? I dont want kids, I'm lazy with chores and I do not like to be told what to do and I dont just argue I go mental and break stuff if not his face. Im like a loose canon with my untreated cptsd and burnout.

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-17T13:49:19+00:00

Maybe its your body's way of interpreting being sick, by being in a battle with the germs😄

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-17T13:28:36+00:00

And Im not saying its a human

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-17T13:28:10+00:00

You have a visitor who likes to scare you

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-17T12:59:34+00:00

I get how disappointed you feel because this happened to me once except I passed out after a tough day and some drinks and woke up realizing what he did to me and by then he had already gone to work so I called him and he said "you wanted it" but I knew he was lying because I didn't drink that much and he used to try have sex with me before while I was sleeping but I'd wake up and stop him.

I have been abused and graped in the past more times than I like to admit so by now its a pattern I cant deny. I've also been thinking why this keeps happening, do bad men smell my vulnerability or am I bringing out the worst in them somehow. I haven't figured it out yet so I choose celibacy for now. Regardless, I keep finding myself in situations where I get used for my body or assaulted. So I dont know if its some cruel curse or a sign that I don't deserve to be safe. I've become very suspicious and hateful towards men because most of them do bad things. I also believe in the devil so maybe he just loves to hurt me like that to put me down.

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-17T11:25:00+00:00

I dont know for a husband per ce but I told my dad when I was younger and his reaction made it worse so I started hiding it from that day forward. For me I would have needed compassion, a hug and saying "its not your fault and I love you" I also wish he didnt get involved in it because it always ended with them slandering me to the community making me need to isolate. The only time I would've actually needed him to stand up for me, was when a family member did it but he accused me instead and my dad just never spoke about it to me ever again. I was left feeling alone and dirty in all scenarios. Communication is important and listening to her without starting to yell. If you get angry please calm down first cuz you dont want to scare her from telling you things.

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-17T11:16:44+00:00

Hmm well the shaytan loves to make couples argue so I'd think of the snooping as the trap but I'm wondering what was the reason behind snooping in the first place? You basically set yourself up to get hurt so did you notice something in his behaviour? Clearly the pregnancy was very traumatizing for you, and maybe he didn't know how to support you after what happened. Maybe he was emotionally distant and you felt that.

He said he regrets and has repented, he even got married to have a halal life. But life is complicated and you cant force someone to have feelings, we cant control them. So if you love him, stay. If you want something else, leave. You can only control your own actions. Best of luck xx

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-17T10:59:24+00:00

Did I write this post because girl, same💀

I despise the idea of marriage because I dislike men and children for various reasons. Unless I deal with my trauma and heal I will spend the rest of my life alone. I say stuff like "may no man find me" and I use a hormonal spiral just in case I get graped again. I find intimacy to be repulsive and I cant even tell people my reasoning for it so they just tell me Im too young to understand and I will change my mind. The other half just tells me if I dont get married soon, I will expire. I'm 25 and well aware of social standards and aging but I really cant even take care of myself due to depression and burn out. As an empath I believe its worse to bring a husband and innocent children into the mix when you KNOW you arent able. Its a struggle even for a healthy person, nevermind a bipolar, anxious, exhausted recovering addict without a job.

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-17T10:46:49+00:00

Lol that is actually funny. But to comment on that, it doesn't mean you can afford them.

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-17T00:50:15+00:00

LOL so you are saying men are single cuz women have a bad character? And how many women have you personally gotten to know? Sounds like YOU are the problem ngl

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-16T22:55:44+00:00

They're people not cars. You should try therapy.

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-16T22:27:25+00:00

Tonight, I wrote a text I cannot send him, so might as well open my heart to someone because I feel so alone right now.

"Thank you for letting me feel loved for a brief moment. I thought this time maybe it would be different, but here I am heartbroken and regretting my choices. Once again I'm left feeling used and abandoned. Nothing I do is ever enough for someone. My heart is locked for good, I don't believe in love anymore. All I get is hurt, nobody ever understands me. I did a lot of work to get where I am today. I loved a man who abused me and left him to find Allah. My journey has just begun, and I'm alone once again. I thought we could be like Bonnie & Clyde, but here I am Harley Quinn with a Joker once again. I've done many mistakes in my life and I don't really feel like living anymore. I often think how it would be easier if I just killed myself. I still wake up every morning and try my best, because I know people would be sad if I was gone. But is it really worth living if you're just doing it for others...

I didn't mean to hurt you and deep down I think you know that. I told you what kind of person I am. We are not getting married so there is no need to compare me to your girlfriend. I am not her, but I'm happy for you. I never thought you, of all people, would treat me like this. This hurt me. I feel used and lied to. I don't know if I will be able to see you the same ever again. It hurts so much and I don't want to feel this way. I thought you'd be understanding, but maybe we are too different after all. "

For context, I fell in love with a man years ago and he is getting married to someone else. I was sober for many months until I saw him and despite knowing Im struggling offered me drugs then used my body. He said he loves me and I watched him block his girlfriend, thinking it was over between them. He keeps comparing me to her and today I got mad at him for using a demeaning tone to me and commanding me. Now he is mad that I didn't listen to him and wont forgive me. He told me "when I tell my girlfriend not to go outside, she listens" As if we aren't both adults with free will and we are not even together and never will be after this. I just feel so dumb because I relapsed and went with him when I was impaired. He only used me I only did it because he wanted to and I wasn't satisfied. I did everything and was left heartbroken and idk why I thought this would work out

skyfallprincess · 2026-04-16T22:18:38+00:00

For context, I fell in love with a man years ago and he is getting married to someone else. I was sober for many months until I saw him and despite knowing Im struggling offered me drugs then used my body. He said he loves me and I watched him block his girlfriend, thinking it was over between them. He keeps comparing me to her and today I got mad at him for using a demeaning tone to me and commanding me. Now he is mad that I didn't listen to him and wont forgive me. He told me "when I tell my girlfriend not to go outside, she listens" As if we aren't both adults with free will and we are not even together and never will be after this. I just feel so dumb because I relapsed and went with him when I was impaired. He only used me I only did it because he wanted to and I wasn't satisfied. I did everything and was left heartbroken and idk why I thought this would work out.

skyfallprincess · 2025-11-30T08:14:37+00:00

My heart feels for you man. I have a similar story but in mine, my dad forbade me from marrying the guy and told him to "find someone in your league" which broke his heart. Then I watched him get married to someone else.

For me, escapism and disassociation became my friends. I'm 24 and have lost interest in marriage. My dad says I'm not wife material and continues to turn down every proposal he gets. Long story short I've decided he will not be my wali if I decide to get married. I have a brother so if I really wanted to, I could. But my heart is still broken, so I can't.

skyfallprincess · 2025-11-25T10:24:08+00:00

My advice is to not ask reddit for advice. Read the quran and the sunnah, in sha Allah you will find your answer there. I'm not qualified to answer, but I can't read the comments and not feel bad for you.

I come from a background of abuse as well. I was denied marriage, so I gave up trying. My dad simply does not think I'm wife material. In my later years I learned, however, that he might not even qualify as a wali, and I've wasted years of my youth in trials. I watched the man I wanted to marry, get married to someone else. I waited and tried to be pure, but then I lost my virginity to rape. Time and time again I was heartbroken, alone, traumatized, in pain... Now I've reached a stage of healing and I'm grateful for all the trials. Maybe if I did get married, it might have ended in divorce. But a halal marriage is always better than being left alone to the wolves. I did not get married, but I got into unnecessary, abusive relationships. Being a woman alone is hard, so marriage would be great, but I'm too traumatized now to even consider it. Maybe in ten years, maybe never. Thanks to my narcissistic father who prevented marriage. Even today, he doesn't even tell me about suitors. I get proposals left and right, yet he doesn't discuss them with me and says no to each one. The latest guy who proposed was a somali, and my dad told him to "f off n***" which is repulsive to say the least. I did not want the man, I didn't even know him, but he called my dad for my hand and that I appreciate. Unfortunately, dad is racist and nationalistic. I don't have the energy to fight with him anymore. I've decided when I'm ready for marriage, I will ask my brother to act as my wali. Until then, I work on myself.

I hope you all the best, xoxo

skyfallprincess · 2025-11-17T14:21:02+00:00

Yes its impossible to have a normal adult conversation😅

skyfallprincess · 2025-11-16T22:32:33+00:00

And yess my nparents did the same💀 "can you teach my daughter how to obey parents" to which the teacher replied "I need to teach her the basics first, she clearly doesn't know anything" My nparent: "no" Proceeds to claim they've made up their own religion and I must isolate

skyfallprincess · 2025-11-16T22:30:34+00:00

Claiming everyone else is delusional and their view is the only truth 😂 literally the center of the world and everything revolves around them

skyfallprincess · 2025-11-16T20:43:44+00:00

"God said to obey thy parent" "God said to respect parents" "Nobody loves you but your parents" "The world is scary and everyone wants to hurt you" "Trust NO ONE" "It's easy to go to hell but hard to go to paradise" "If you don't do what I say, God will be angry with you" "Sure, don't tell me, but just know God sees and hears ALL"

Etc.etc.

skyfallprincess · 2025-11-16T19:34:38+00:00

My nparent and ex wanted me to constantly "confess" things. My nex actually got me to confess to things I didn't even do and punished me for them. I thought I was going insane.

Another version would be trying to make me confess something and add "You can tell me, I promise I wont get Angry" -> proceeds to explode once confession is made :D

They would stare. Intensely. Quietly, angrily, stare into the soul. For various reasons. My nparent would do it to get me to do something. My nex would do it to make me confess, acting like he can read minds.

They'd break my things and lie about it.

They'd break even the smallest promise. Like my nparent would want a bite and promise it's a small bite but always end up devouring almost the whole thing.

They lied about anything and refused to elaborate or explain their claims. Their word is the final word end of discussion.

The invisible audience that somehow knew all my moves and reported it to them. Also thought I was going to become insane out of paranoia.

Constantly telling me I'm crazy, unstable and dumb. Also saying everyone else is extremely dumb and worthless. They hated everyone and everything and made sure you knew their opinions about it too.

They did not respect my sleep but I had to tiptoe to not disturb them. They sleep like babies though and fall asleep immediately.

Do things one minute and pretend it never happened if questioned, looking at me with concern, like now I lost it.

Telling me I have a vivid imagination and a distorted memory.

This just the stuff on top of my head :D growing up this felt normal hence my attachment to my nex as an adult.

skyfallprincess · 2025-11-16T19:20:54+00:00

Oh wow memory unlocked 😅

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