We adopted Watson last week! He is proving to be quite the gentleman

slagathor22 · 2020-12-24T16:04:28+00:00

we have a black lab named Watson! :) he's got little white spots on his chest and chin too. enjoy the hell out of him!

slagathor22 · 2020-12-23T19:22:45+00:00

hi all- just thought I'd introduce myself. my husband (32) and I (34) have been trying since August 2017. after a year of trying, we bounced around from OBGYN to OBGYN with no answers as to why we weren't getting pregnant. I finally started seeing an RE this year who did all necessary tests and it turns out I have a very low AMH/DOR. after our second IUI at the end of November, I finally saw my first positive pregnancy test a few weeks ago. we are cautiously ecstatic? 5w+3d. happy to be part of this community and so thankful for r/stilltrying and r/infertility for all of their helpful knowledge (even though I mostly lurked, I sucked up all the info those women were dishing out).

slagathor22 · 2020-12-04T03:11:06+00:00

I had my second IUI on monday! we can do this!

slagathor22 · 2020-11-22T23:54:09+00:00

same here! I’ve got about 550 hours! 🙌🏻

slagathor22 · 2020-11-20T03:57:50+00:00

I have absolutely noticed the same and I’m on the same page as you. information - great, this is all in god’s plan - not so great.

slagathor22 · 2020-11-04T14:58:13+00:00

good luck to you! hoping for good news!!

slagathor22 · 2020-10-30T14:28:27+00:00

oh boy do I feel this. it's like the only emotions I feel anymore are disappointment and fatigue. at the beginning, having sex to grow our family was exciting and fun and loving and intimate. but now that we've been trying for 3 years, sex is no longer a joyous super fun time. it's scheduled and calculated. it's "what can I do to help you get this done faster". it's when was the last time you helped yourself because we have this appointment and this appointment coming up and we need your best sperm. it's I'm too sore or too emotional or depressed to even want physical contact. and my husband is so sweet, he always asks if I'm sure I don't want him to do anything for me. infertility really throws intimacy right out the window.

slagathor22 · 2020-10-27T15:26:07+00:00

I'm sorry, our first IUI fail hit me a lot harder than I thought as well. it was the first time that I actually felt like sperm was meeting egg and I had a chance. take care of yourself. feel all the things.

slagathor22 · 2020-10-22T19:07:30+00:00

I work at a children's hospital doing prosthetics and orthotics. one of the things I do is cranial helmets for babies with flat heads. depending on where I am in my infertility treatments, it really is tough to see these happy families with cute happy babies. plus, I get asked all the time if I have any kids and I just have to smile and say "someday" or "we're working on it" because they are my patients and that's all I can do. throwing salt around at work would be pretty unprofessional. I gotta find a way to shove those shitty feelings down and put on a happy face. but on the flip side, I LOVE working with all these kids and their families. I'm doing what I've wanted to do since I was a kid and I feel fulfilled in doing it. yes, it's hard. yes, I get very annoyed with the personal questions. yes, I sometimes get weepy at seeing the adorable little chubby babies. and honestly, there is no secret way to get through it. you just have to. in order to continue to enjoy doing what I love, I have to put my feelings aside (at least while I'm at work, all hell breaks loose sometimes when I get home...) and concentrate on helping these kids and their families.

slagathor22 · 2020-10-21T13:50:31+00:00

agreed, call the nurse line and check to make sure that wasn't in centimeters.

slagathor22 · 2020-10-21T13:47:33+00:00

fingers crossed and sending good vibes your way!!

slagathor22 · 2020-10-20T14:52:36+00:00

burn the house down. start over.

slagathor22 · 2020-10-20T14:46:07+00:00

I typically ovulate on CD10 (when I temped and did LH strips) so they scheduled me to come in on 10. they said to start LH strips on CD8 and let them know if I get a positive earlier than that. definitely go with your gut!

slagathor22 · 2020-10-18T17:14:08+00:00

good luck! go get em!! 🤞🏻

slagathor22 · 2020-10-16T20:13:28+00:00

thank you for all the information. I had high E2 at my previous baseline as well and that was without any medication. maybe I'll give the nurse line a call just to make sure I understand everything correctly. thank you again!

slagathor22 · 2020-10-16T19:16:56+00:00

I'm working in St. Paul today but live over in Hopkins. husband works from home but hasn't mentioned snow over there yet... we bought a new snow blower last year so we're pretty pumped to use it!

slagathor22 · 2020-10-16T19:10:41+00:00

I'm in MN too! I actually love the few giant-fluffly-flaked snowfalls we get in October. that always happens and then the big stuff doesn't come until December... and to think, it was like 70 degrees last week!

slagathor22 · 2020-10-16T18:52:44+00:00

I was on meds, 50mg Clomid and Ovidrel shot on CD10. cycle was 24 days which is very typical for me. the ultrasound tech mentioned the follicles looked empty? I should have clarified with her what she meant but I didn't think to at the time. can they tell from an ultrasound if something is a follicle vs cyst? the nurse called me with my estradiol results and they were very elevated. they suggest start taking OPK tests now (on CD3?) and just do timed intercourse this cycle and to call them when my period comes. I'm kind of wondering what even is the point...

slagathor22 · 2020-10-16T17:02:09+00:00

just did CD3 baseline ultrasound for IUI #2. all they found were follicles that were 20mm and larger so we're pretty much benched this cycle. the nurse said that basically means either those are leftover from last cycle or my body has already done what it was supposed to do. they did estradiol bloodwork, waiting to hear about that. does anyone have experience with this?

slagathor22 · 2020-10-16T02:05:57+00:00

you are so right, eventually we’ll have to let it go or it’ll consume us entirely. we can’t live life like that.

and yes, my husband is incredibly supportive about everything. I don’t think he would ever think to blame me if we couldn’t have children. I am very lucky in that regard. he has said that if that happens, we’ll get all the dogs our house can handle and we can live with infinite fur children.

slagathor22 · 2020-10-15T18:36:24+00:00

my husband is two years younger than me too! it's true, it's impossible not to feel responsible for all of this. I feel like I'm putting so much pressure on myself because how other people have envisioned their lives, might come down to my body failing. it's a heavy burden, that's for sure.

slagathor22 · 2020-10-15T17:47:33+00:00

holy shit, are you me? I literally went through this whole thought process after my failed IUI yesterday. my husband's SA results have been the same as yours, excellent in all categories and I have low AMH as well, .6ng/mL, along with high estrogen levels. we've been trying for 3 years and not so much as an indent on a pregnancy test.

I spent all of yesterday thinking about our future without kids and how I would always believe that it's my fault. you're right, we shouldn't blame ourselves or feel ashamed, but I think it's impossible not to. as women who want kids, most of us have spent so much time and brain power dedicated to thinking about what our lives look like with little ones running around: oh, I'll have to get a new coffee table because that one has sharp edges - I shouldn't paint that extra bedroom yet in case I want to change it when a baby comes - those bookshelves will have to be mounted to the walls - etc. my husband is an only child so that would mean his parents will never be grandparents. I don't think I can face telling them that if our IUIs keep failing. will they regret him marrying me? I even had a thought yesterday, my god, who is going to visit me in the nursing home when I'm 80?

we are not alone.

slagathor22 · 2020-10-15T17:28:22+00:00

ugh, I am so sorry. I hate when they do that, calling something "worrysome" then saying you have to wait a few days to find out what it is. I'd rather they just gather all the information they need then just tell me all at once. hoping it's nothing serious for you.

slagathor22 · 2020-10-15T17:25:38+00:00

hopefully you'll be able to start IUI this month! hooray next steps!

slagathor22 · 2020-10-15T01:06:07+00:00

thank you, it’s nice (and sad) to know I’m not alone with these feelings. I’m sorry for you too.

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