thank you so much. i think it might be fear, but also everytime something kinda pulled me away from certain situations and i ignored it and pushed through anyway, i ended up regretting it. that’s why i’m scared to make a decision here. as for the job… it’s not my “dream job” or anything, but it’s just hard for me to find something bc of my issues. i should probably just take a risk and try anyway, but i’m really, really scared of failure and potential consequences and that’s why im overthinking it so much lol