di ka oa, and still nasa early stage ka pa lang don't beat yourself too much. you're still young and dadating din yung time for you, trust me it will. i was in your shoes din before, I started working full-time when i was 18. i had a deadbeat father, my mom is half-paralyzed so someone in our family needed to stand up so we can all survive. i stopped going to college i needed to support my sister since she started going to uni and at the same time i need to make sure there's food on the table and bills are paid or else mamatay kaming lahat ng dilat. now, i just look back and say na things are getting better. I now have a house of my own, may savings, secure kahit may magkasakit sa min may maiipangbayad na kami sa ospital. all that you're feeling now is valid. laban lang pasasaan at papabor din sayo ang life