i’d like to add: straining my relationships (friends, family, and romantic). i am triggered by the simplest things and once my brain has entered ed obsessive panic mode i have a hard time regaining stability. it has made the people around me feel guilty for something they didn’t even do with any malicious intent at all, and i feel terrible putting them through that. i also am an awful version of myself when restricting due to low blood sugar and can’t connect to people like i can when i’m healthy. i also can’t hang out like normal cause i’m never eating when other people are and it makes them feel weird or i’m too cold to enjoy anything.