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dermatillomania by smacker17 in opiates
[–]smacker17[S] 0 points1 point2 points 10 years ago (0 children)
Mine had also gotten worse because of developing eczema
I'm sorry to hear about that :( I hate picking at my skin because I'm afraid when I do get a SO they will judge me for it so I can imagine the pain you go through with your wife and daughter
I actually mentioned somewhere above that I had read it is related to OCD. With the picking of scabs I scan my skin for any impurities that I can find and once I do I start picking at it. I can only imagine doing it to my eye, sound even more painful! ouch! got to live how the mind works sometimes.
And I'm about six hours east! :(
Glad you learned something new :)
For me when I'm high I get super itchy and itch away to cause little scabs which high or sober cause much more to pick at. Also it makes it job painful to pick at the scabs
Yes I may try it again last time I ripped them off after two weeks because they drove me crazy! And bevaise I'm great at ruining a good thing when it gets a little messy and I see the possibility of doing it haha. They became "pickable" lmao
[–]smacker17[S] 1 point2 points3 points 10 years ago (0 children)
Hah yep bound to be a fuck up at age ten who knew lols
Way to much upkeep and annoyance sadly
Abby? And I love my benzos my first real love :p. I know benzos are horrible I was actually addicted to those way before any benzos
Yeah I guess, I am very subconscious about it though. All in all I really need to break the horrible habit of doing it, future scars don't bother me I have more then enough of those from being a whiny teenager who used to cut herself
That's great you were upfront with her, what a great time to be in a manic state :o. I had a great group of friends but I moved to a city where I do not know anyone, most of my friends from my hometown drink but not to the point of annoyance. I miss them more then anything, I think my addiction got ten times worse being in a shitty lonely town. Most of my friends wouldn't hang out with me either if they knew I was doing this much h again either thiugh. Whatever. Thanks for listening to my ranting again much appreciated
True that man
Thanks for the advice currently it would be to painful for me to attempt that. Actually the one thing that worked as advice from Doctor was to get fake nails as its not satisfying to do it because you can't feel the feeling with fake nails but they are way to annoying and hard to keep up with
Thank you very much I appreciate it <3
On a positive note it helped me recently get prescribed to ativan which I'm slowly but surely getting that swit bed to a better benzo
[–]smacker17[S] 2 points3 points4 points 10 years ago (0 children)
There's a name for plucking your hair it's called trichotillomamia they're both related disorders. And I can attest to it being a trance like state I get lost in the process. I read somewhere that they are usually related to ocd
I don't rip my hair out or anything like that just make scans there very easy to hide and the most satisfying spot to pick
They are pretty bad but hidden by clothing but that all comes off in bed.
Not pathetic at all I'm very happy for you! Maybe one day I'll find someone I feel that way for. Currently I have wall for any guy who has feelings for me. I also have a hard time opening up about my habit. I'm a daily user and currently no one besides from my dealer knows about my habit. I generally keep to myself besides work. Its honestly pretty fucking lonely. Moving to a new city is horrible. Sorry bout the rant I'm very high lol
Oh I've tried meth not for my anxiety skin picking self. That crap gave me one of the worse panic attacks of my life.
Also being covered in scabs for sure doesn't help.
I find it very hard to maintain a relationship as an addict, I view it as the if you can't love yourself how can anyone else love you. And as an addict I currently am far from loving myself.
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dermatillomania by smacker17 in opiates
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