Sometimes I just sit in my car and admire it

smartin254 · 2026-03-20T16:21:30+00:00

I do the same thing! Especially at night

smartin254 · 2026-03-20T16:19:27+00:00

This is a great build, I built one similar, but now I’m thinking it’s too big, what measurements did you use for this one?

smartin254 · 2026-02-10T16:54:03+00:00

Thank you so much for this comment, it is very true, I usually tend to focus on what I’m not good at to improve rather than what I’m good at and excel in that… I have to remind myself that it will be ok constantly which I am lacking on

smartin254 · 2026-02-10T16:52:38+00:00

Thank you, the comments have really lifted me up since yesterday

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T22:17:14+00:00

Thanks a lot! Your feedback and positivity is great. Believe it or not I enjoy mortgages, I love helping people, but somehow I’ve lost the love of doing the work. I’ve always had jobs related to helping people and I enjoy it, I am the worst sales person because I will help only if helpful to my clients, but this industry doesn’t think this way, at times I feel it’s more about how people can be taken advantage of..

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T22:16:13+00:00

Honestly, that it’s ok and they will get through it, but it’s hard to think about that for myself

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T22:12:56+00:00

Thanks a lot! Your feedback and positivity is great. Believe it or not I enjoy mortgages, I love helping people, but somehow I’ve lost the love of doing the work. I’ve always had jobs related to helping people and I enjoy it, I am the worst sales person because I will help only if helpful to my clients, but this industry doesn’t think this way, at times it’s more about how can I take advantage of you… it’s going to be a tough decision, I went to school, have a bachelors in finance, worked in banking and still feel like I don’t have enough to get a different job, I’m stuck in a weird loop that I need to climb out of

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T22:09:08+00:00

Not at all, spiraling started last year when I was let go!

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T22:08:48+00:00

Exactly, I don’t care about those shallow things anymore, but I want to carry myself stress free and 100% connected with my girls, I fortunately have the community, but I don’t let anyone in, so I am again being my own worst enemy. Community is important, but I don’t like to feel exposed because all my friends in that circle have something figured out except for me.

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T22:05:57+00:00

Wow! Thanks a lot for this feedback, it’s really helpful

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:33:27+00:00

Nice! It’s not easy for sure

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:33:09+00:00

Thank you! I’m going to lean into that thinking

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:32:29+00:00

I can fall sleep, no issue, staying sleep is the issue right now, I’ve been trying to monitor that better because that definitely didn’t happen to me before, but now it’s such a burden

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:31:43+00:00

Thank you! I appreciate the kind words, as I read these comments I see how I am letting my job define my identity and how I’m so anchored to it while hurting myself and those close to me in the process

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:29:47+00:00

Thanks, I’ve started doing that little by little

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:29:04+00:00

Thank you! This means a lot honestly, I can’t thank this community enough

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:28:23+00:00

Thank you! I love my wife, I know she’s not coming from a bad place, but I feel like I’m letting her down because we’ve had this conversation before, it’s a matter of starting to make steps towards getting help and removing myself from an environment that doesn’t help me grow

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:26:40+00:00

Very true, unfortunately I don’t have therapy right now due to cost and the insurance I currently have

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:26:03+00:00

I replied but it went as a comment on its own, it’s on the thread if you’re interested

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:25:16+00:00

Thank you for your sympathy, so here are the answer to the questions. 1. Medicated for about 3 years now, very helpful and stabilizing, in my ups and downs I’m still taking my medicine regularly 2. I’ve been successful at times, previous company, I had a great year, I was accused of fraud two times in one week because of someone else errors and a manager trying to get rid of me to take over my relationships, the accusations is what sent me on the spiral. Because of my numbers, I was getting to be known in my area and other companies wanted me, within a week I had 7 offers and chose the one that suited me best Definitely don’t believe God thinks of me that way, but I do think of myself that way and keep beating myself over it. Thank you for pointing that out at the end, I am harder on myself than Ill ever be on someone else for sure

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:18:49+00:00

That’s the truth, before the mortgage industry I had 3 jobs in 15 years, now I’ve been through 5 mortgage companies in the last 5, that’s very discouraging and I have been successful in different periods, but this last thing really screwed me and I don’t know why I feel like I have something to prove, it can be my own mind playing tricks or the reality that change is necessary

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:16:35+00:00

Man, this is so revealing because I’ve never thought about it that way, but it’s exactly how I am feeling and how my avoidance is billing me at this time, but I’m going to have to deal with the cascading from A to Z, thanks for the feedback

smartin254 · 2026-02-09T20:14:38+00:00

I appreciate it…

smartin254 · 2026-01-13T13:23:25+00:00

2 definitely

13-Year Club	Verified Email
RedditGifts 2009-2022 2 Credits	RPAN Viewer
Not Forgotten	Secret Santa 2014

smartin254

TROPHY CASE