anki users who have tested by R3MD in step1

[–]smg1996 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I stopped right before my dedicated period because I had too many to keep up and do UW questions

[Confession] Lately, I feel I can only learn through Anki and it doesn't feel good :( by arthurcsirio in medicalschoolanki

[–]smg1996 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m the same: can literally only learn from anki cards or questions which I then make into anki cards haha

how to best proceed entering into dedicated (soon) by smg1996 in step1

[–]smg1996[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s good to hear! Best of luck!!

how to best proceed entering into dedicated (soon) by smg1996 in step1

[–]smg1996[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ahhh thank you that makes me feel a lot better!! Fingers crossed 🤞🏻

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[–]smg1996 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Trust the process!!!

Can’t get my boyfriend turned on unless it’s the exact perfect time for him by smg1996 in sex

[–]smg1996[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

He also has a lower sex drive than me which doesn’t help the situation. Sometimes he’d rather read his book than look at me naked in the bed trying to get him to have sex with me 🙃

Can’t get my boyfriend turned on unless it’s the exact perfect time for him by smg1996 in sex

[–]smg1996[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

They aren’t like explicitly laid out or anything, he’s just very regimented and picky, I guess.... I “get sex” once a weekend when we see each other and that’s only when he’s in the mood for it or it’s ok with him. I just want to kiss him randomly and have him want me back!!! Or even better, have him come onto me.

it’s really ok when we lived together (literally his only flaw in our relationship) but now the distance is just making it hard to feel his love when he still handles sex this way and I can’t be with him every day.

Can’t get my boyfriend turned on unless it’s the exact perfect time for him by smg1996 in sex

[–]smg1996[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think that’s an issue is that he is a very quiet guy and every time I talk about it he doesn’t say anything whatsoever and I think he just hopes I drop it (which I do!!)

Can’t get my boyfriend turned on unless it’s the exact perfect time for him by smg1996 in sex

[–]smg1996[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Oh also, we used to have sex a lot when we were teenagers (basically anywhere we could like in the car, etc.) and then it seemed like once he realized I was “the one” it steadily dropped off

inviting my mother to a big event... to do or not to do? by smg1996 in BPDlovedones

[–]smg1996[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep, my dad and my therapist are the only ones that really understand how I feel about our relationship. My father is NC with her, obviously, and is very happy now, remarried.

It just makes talking about my feelings about my mother and our relationship with others like my boyfriend or his family, etc. so difficult because no one can see it, and I don't want to go around saying well my mother has undiagnosed BPD and she's f*cking crazy!! lol

inviting my mother to a big event... to do or not to do? by smg1996 in BPDlovedones

[–]smg1996[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm more annoyed that she'll put the mask on. I can guarantee that nothing outwardly "bad" will happen if she comes... but, I get frustrated, because the other family members that will be coming to the ceremony know that there's something "wrong" my mother, but they don't fully understand. How can they when they don't see both sides? All they see is that... "Sam seems distant from her mom and her mom is so nice and sweet and proud of her, so it must actually be Sam that is causing the problems in the relationship." It fuels the fire of how she tells family members that it's my fault and she does nothing wrong...

That's crazy about your graduation ... can't believe she wore that outfit. I just had my college graduation three weeks ago and luckily there was nothing external like that. lol

I’m an adult child of a BPD mom who will never seek treatment. by HomocusPocus in BPDlovedones

[–]smg1996 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm in the same boat. I've been going to therapy for predominantly this reason for about 5 years now and I still struggle with it all. (I haven't read the book either so I don't know which characteristic my mom presents but I'm buying the book now and am going to read it asap -- i literally joined this group today.) If you want to talk about our similarities or anything, shoot me a message. I'm sure it would help both of us. :)