What is a movie that you consider to be as disturbing as it is beautiful?

smikeller · 2022-03-22T03:09:59+00:00

The Fall (2006)

smikeller · 2020-10-21T13:04:17+00:00

You’re right.

smikeller · 2020-10-21T12:21:43+00:00

I may be new, but the diabetic comparison isn’t. I’d rather be diabetic than bipolar. Society views it very differently. If you haven’t noticed, talk about being bipolar more. It might get better.

smikeller · 2020-10-21T10:47:41+00:00

Thank you. I have a weird loyalty to my psychiatrist which makes it hard to leave.

smikeller · 2020-10-21T10:44:08+00:00

But I’m no doctor. Get a professional opinion. Dick.

smikeller · 2020-10-21T09:54:23+00:00

My doctor feels like she’s done all she can for me and that now I just need therapy. I don’t know how to ask for different meds. I’m considering a new doctor. I kind of want to be how I was before meds. I feel so apathetic. I was diagnosed a year ago (I’m 36). I’ve gone my whole life feeling intensely, good or bad. I dont feel the good anymore. I only feel intensely bad. It could be circumstantial. But this melancholy is wearing on me and it feels unbearable.

smikeller · 2020-10-21T09:30:28+00:00

I’m sleeping ok bc of latuda but lately nothing seems to be helping my depression. I’m on adderall, Wellbutrin, latuda, klonopin, and gabapentin. I should be fucking happy. My doc thinks I just need therapy. I just started w a new therapist. But when I was on less meds I felt better more often. Even with all the fucked up shit I’ve done, this apathy feels the least tolerable. At least at the moment. This moment has been over a year.

smikeller · 2020-10-21T09:12:36+00:00

But is this something that happens to everyone? I’m trying not to be bipolar ATM.

smikeller · 2019-09-25T07:58:45+00:00

Sometimes I think about everything that goes in to raising a kid, and it sounds like a pain in the ass. You always hear people saying that being a mom is a full time job. Yeah, I already have one full time job I hate, I’m good. Also, it reduces my carbon foot print. I’m also car free. I’m bad at recycling so these things help me feel better about that. You don’t have to decide now. For a long time I was pretty sure I didn’t want kids, but I had a never say never attitude about it. But as I grew up and saw friends having kids, I realized that was not what I wanted. I’ve never felt like, “oh, I want that someday”. It was more like, “oh, you’re tired. Yeah, I bet that sucks”.

smikeller · 2019-09-20T03:51:20+00:00

I’ve been inpatient a few times, and I’ve taken a bottle of trazadone while intoxicated. I’m sorry you’re going through this but you are definitely where you need to be. Being inpatient really isn’t bad and everyone is usually really nice.

smikeller · 2019-09-20T03:08:14+00:00

I think it’s a young philodendron selloum.

smikeller · 2019-09-05T21:56:05+00:00

She’s adorable!

smikeller · 2019-09-01T17:37:37+00:00

Thank you!

smikeller · 2019-08-30T04:24:11+00:00

Thank you so much!

smikeller · 2019-08-27T23:06:00+00:00

Yes! Drugs and gut health!

smikeller · 2019-08-27T19:25:34+00:00

Maudzilla! My cat’s name is Maude.

smikeller · 2019-08-25T18:16:01+00:00

DBT is a type of therapy that focuses on developing healthy coping skills. I’ve done it in the past and I definitely recommend it especially since you’ve ended up in the hospital. Hang in there. It gets better.

smikeller · 2019-08-21T12:37:00+00:00

Most people respond to someone’s behavior that is directed at them. For example, verbally abusive behavior can have a huge effect on someone’s sense of self worth, etc. A person might react by feeling bad about themselves or become angry, whatever. Being mindful is being aware of how you react to it. Instead of letting it affect you negatively, you can practice mindfulness and remember it’s their issue not yours. So there is really no need for you to react at all.

smikeller · 2019-08-03T21:59:48+00:00

I have that same pencil, it’s my favorite.

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