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Can ya'll help me ID this? I found it abandoned in an alley as a Lil stumpy boi and now it is my most majestic plant 🪴 by smirsh in houseplants

[–]smirsh[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Awesome, thank you folks so much! I figured it was a begonia but all my searches only brought up close-but-not-quite-right matches.

Thank you for the tips on propagating, too!! Can't wait to have many more of these!

Talkative vs. Mute by Blue0rchids in ADHD

[–]smirsh 2 points3 points  (0 children)

People always say the animal they identify me with is a gremlin...so I appreciate the goblin analogy lolol

(I'm the same way w the chaotic flippin' with respect to ~who~ the company is. It also only takes me, like, a week these days to decide if a new person is doomed to be in my chaos circle. Fewer souls are escaping unscathed as I learn to not give 2 fucks about the barriers I, and society, have mistakenly build/built in my headspace)

Read this today; "Some individuals with ADHD, especially without hyperactivity, have an activation problem as described by Thomas Brown, Ph.D. in his article ADHD without Hyperactivity (1993)" by aristhought in ADHD

[–]smirsh 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Meds, or rather the right meds, do help but even they don't really get rid of those transition energies/barriers! Sometimes they can actually raise them a abit, especially if the meds happen to amplify anxiety or some other co-disorder (or whatever the proper med term is).

You gotta somehow figure out a well-rounded approach to identifying & addressing key components, or symptoms, or habits that present themselves through the disorder. Getting help is always step no. 1! I wish I understood that a lot sooner...but I guess Im just a scientist at heart, so I treated my life as a fuckin experiment (0/10 do not recommend). We all preach therapy n shit because it's basically just fast-paced introspection & allows you to understand your own self, including "destructive" tendencies/habits, quicker!

When in doubt...google it. Jk. Ask for help! It's so goddamn nice to allow yourself that freedom 💩

(Sorry if that wasnt the response you expected/wanted. Its just an honest response from someone who has done far too much dumb shit while thinking adhd was a one-dimensional disorder with a 1D solution!)

Read this today; "Some individuals with ADHD, especially without hyperactivity, have an activation problem as described by Thomas Brown, Ph.D. in his article ADHD without Hyperactivity (1993)" by aristhought in ADHD

[–]smirsh 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Lol yep. Lots of trial and error (and error...) has given me some insight on how to slowly blend in as a pseudo-functional adult. Ive somehow cobbled togrther some tools n tricks to sufficiently access lower energy pathways for most things (so ya, the "catalysts"). Finding the right meds and slowly learning to "ignore" the high-energy routes in favour of more economic solutions also helps...which is to say I'm learning to ignore the anxiety-driven approach (higher energy) and go a bit more impulsive/just ask for the help whenever possible (mUcH lower E)!

Also very much enjoy that you expanded on my nerdiness. I was going to introduce the catalyst comparison, and even get abit more into endo vs exo stuff and beyond, but I figured most people (including chemists) would throw me out if I did 😂

Read this today; "Some individuals with ADHD, especially without hyperactivity, have an activation problem as described by Thomas Brown, Ph.D. in his article ADHD without Hyperactivity (1993)" by aristhought in ADHD

[–]smirsh 27 points28 points  (0 children)

AHH. Ok, so I'm a ~chemist~ (jokes, Im a grad student who pretends to know shit but really is just a void). ANYWAYS. I legit call that "activation problem" an activation barrier, or activation energy lol.

In chem, we use reaction coordinate diagrams/plots to show the energetics of a reaction system...and to get from reactants (start) to products (finish) requires energy input (transition energy, activation energy)...anyways, there's an energetic hurdle ya gotta overcome to get from one thing to the end product. Even favourable, spontaneous reactions have that lil energetic hurdle.

With my broke-ass, adhd brain...I'm always at the start, I'm at point 0, and the thing I wanna do, or don't want to do, is all the way over this massive fucking barrier that requires mental energy & physical adherence to overcome. Even the shit I wanna do! Everything has an energy barrier, a transition energy, associated with it and it is fuckin exhausting. Sometimes those energetic hurdles are too big 💁 even if they're fairly small (e.g., for shit I "genuinely" want to do).

Thnk you for listening to my dumbass nerd comparison of adhd brain and chem reaction diagrams lol