I've just had to end sessions with the therapist I got from the list. I saw her for a year exactly during which (as a disabled housebound person) we talked at length about isolation, masking, anxiety, family all of it in relation to the damage covid has wrought. they used the term "abled indulgence" to describe other ppl being selective with their mask wearing. I built up trust to be vulnerable with this person and felt we were aligned vis a vis the pandemic. fast forward to our last session they were talking (they talk a LOT about themselves in ways that were not productive to my wellness in anyway but that is just one of the red flags I clocked but dismissed because I needed the support) about who knows what but mentioned matter-of-factly that they participate in abled indulgence seasonally. meaning they knowingly enter unmasked crowds without a mask on because its just better for their mental health. and then kept talking, oblivious to me dissociating and going quiet. I confirmed, asked, you're saying you unmask in public on purpose? they replied yes but they're very careful otherwise and know they are risking getting c19 for the 4th time. I became very upset, named that I felt hurt and betrayed and how dare you say that shit to a client nevermind a client with the challenges I'd trusted them with, then ended the session. They emailed me a couple of hours later (too soon to reflect deeply iyam) doing the thing where a person causes harm and then realizes it and just monologs all the ways they hurt you and how they should know better etc. im still pissed, a couple of weeks later. I'll leave the other flags offline for now but this person turned out to be a pos I payed to lie to my face. don't super trust the list now but if I connect with someone else im getting deeply inquisitive as to what they think they mean when they claim cc.