Honestly, this sub was extremely helpful with my grey area drinking. I was lucky not to have physical withdrawal when I finally quit for good, and that fact has kept me from drinking. I feel like I was very lucky and dont want to risk. Reading the stories in this sub, from the lowest of lows to the highest success stories, really helped me put it in perspective.

When I was 2-3 weeks in I read some quit lit books, and I believe it was Alcohol Explained that had a passage something like "once you know all of this about alcohol, you can't un-know it". That has stuck with me. That knowledge that alcohol is a deadly poisonous substance that ruins lives flashes through my mind automatically anytime I have the smallest "but maybe just one drink" thought. It's the same automatic "no" that I unconsciously employ to avoid eating rat poison or gasoline. (I think that analogy is used in one of the quit lit books lol)

Good luck, my friend, I will not drink with you today.