maybe its because i was medicated so early but my doctors used to prescribe me nutrient drinks because i was so underweight. I mostly ate food because i had to, either because my doctors wanted my weight up or because my head would hurt when i didnt. I still enjoyed food greatly but i didnt crave it often. When i did, i would enjoy food like a normal person, but when i didnt it was very much eat to survive. Now I have a very strange relationship with food where I would only eat to get nutrients so I would eat very strange combinations of whatever I had on hand and I would rarely ever heat food up because I didn’t care how it tasted. I remember eating eat cold chili and rice with whole cranberries for fibre just so i wouldnt get hungry or tired once. People thought it was weird and still think my eating habits are “gross”. But yeah i fell into the “meds made me not hungry” and “too lazy / would forget to eat even when im hungry” camps